I'm Being Chased....By The Very One That I Pursue

~Finally Made The Move~

2008-03-13T15:02:00.001-04:00

Sorry folks,

I have moved from blogspot to wordpress.

Check it out http://jessicamargaret.wordpress.com/

Take care

~ Picture of Jesus~

2008-03-05T22:12:00.007-05:00

This is an old song but I really like. I want to be an imitator of Jesus. I want be a picture of Jesus. Just like a little boy and his father playing simon says. I want to be just like my Father.

Picture of Jesus - Ben Harper

It hangs above my altar
Like they hung him from a cross
I keep one in my wallet
For the times I feel lost
I feel lost
In a wooden frame with splinters
Where my family kneels to pray
And if you listen close
You'll hear the words he used to say

I've got a picture of Jesus
In his arms so many prayers rest
We've got a picture of Jesus
And with him we shall be forever blessed
Forever blessed
Forever blessed

Now it has been spoken
He would come again
But would we recognize
This king among men
There was a man in our time
His words shine bright like the sun
He tried to lift the masses
And was crucified by gun

He was a picture of Jesus
With him so many prayers rest
He is a picture of Jesus
In his arms so many prayers
So many prayers
So many prayers rest
With him we shall be forever blessed
Forever blessed
Forever blessed

Some days have no beginning
And some days have no end
Some roads are straight and narrow
And some roads only bend
So let us say a prayer
For every living thing
Walking towards a light
From the cross of a king
We long to be a picture of Jesus
Of Jesus
In his arms
In his arms so many prayers rest
I long to be a picture of Jesus
With him we shall be forever blessed
With him we shall
With him we shall be forever blessed
Oh- Oh- I long
I've got a picture of Jesus
Mmhh

What does your picture of Jesus look like?

~Pictures~

2008-03-05T18:24:00.003-05:00

These are some photos I have taken over the years that I have come to like. I just thought I would share them with you. Enjoy.

~ A Cup of Coffee and a Blank Piece of Paper~

2008-02-27T10:41:00.003-05:00

I have found lately all I want to do is sit in café with a hot cup of coffee and write. As I sit there words, feelings, and emotions would come to mind. What would I write about? I don’t know maybe something fictional or something true, something real. Who knows? My point is all I want to do is write. If I cannot find time to write, I would love to sit on a bench outside and read a book for myself. So often all I have been reading is text books. I would love to sit somewhere away from the business of life and read or write for myself.

It’s a cold late February morning. There is snow and slush everywhere. I guess that is expected when you choose to live in the Maritimes. One thing I can say is I look forward to moving out west where snow is almost non-existent. I look forward to new surroundings, new adventures, a new house mate (Christian), new people to meet. I look forward it all. I am very excited!

Yet there another side of me that is feeling sad because I know I am feeling leaving all of my comfortable surroundings, I am going miss the people I have known for years, I going to miss the family feeling about the Maritimes. I am going to miss the authenticity of it, I am going to miss cold winters, I am going to miss kitchen parties, and I am to going miss everything about the Maritimes.

I have mentioned this to a couple of people before and they have said to me don’t worry Jess you are going to love it out there. I do not doubt one bit that I will love it. The thing that is going to be hard for me is that I am entering into a place where I do not know anyone expect Christian. I am not going to be able to just walk next door and hang out with Jen Fry, or drive home for the weekend and see Jen Mac. I am realizing that it is going to take me a while before I feel comfortable there and find good solid friends.

In all my feelings about leaving I look ahead to see this exciting and wonderful future with Christian. I am happy I am entering this time of my life with him. I am happy I am going out west with him. I am happy for this change in my life.........WEST COAST HERE I COME!! Spring is almost here and I am eagerly waiting to see DRY grass on the ground. I am eager for warm sunshine and the sound of birds singing.

~If You Were an Icon....~

2008-02-26T21:00:00.004-05:00

I have been thinking a lot lately. What have I been thinking about? The Church, Christians, school work, excited about getting married....

I have thinking about a lot of different things. I realized that for anyone who is not a christian and reads my blogs.....they would probably think I am a nut case for Jesus. I have come to accept that and know I am ok with whatever people choose to think of me. I have been told that I am a weirdo, nut case, Jesus freak, off the wall, and whacked out all because I am a christian and I love Jesus and I love writing about Him. If you are not a christian and you have been reading my stuff and have found them offensive or whacked out....well ... I am sorry I am not going to stop writing about the love that burns so deeply inside of me.

What has been bugging me lately? Is what non-christiana think about God or His church. I mean ya... some of the things they see about the church are true....but does that mean they should shut off everything to do with it. It's hard for me to understand because I stand in a totally different place then they do. I have a relationship with Christ. My heart breaks for them. My heart breaks for God's church. I pray that God's church would rise up to be that vast army of God it should be.

Church of Canada rise up! We are doing a horrible job at representing Christ to this world. Why do you think non-christians are turned off at coming to worship on a Sunday morning? Because they believe "church" is all about rules and guidelines. What they do not know is that Jesus doesn't care about what you DO he cares about our heart. He wants our heart more than the things we choose to DO. Yes Jesus does love seeing us do things for him but before he sees us do things for him he wants to see where our heart is.

If I sound angry...I am. I have a holy angry burning inside of me. I feel so broken for the church and for all the unbelievers. GAAAHHHHHHHH I wish I could express what I am feeling right now.

Here is a question to think about....I was in class today and my teacher asked this question: If you were a computer icon what you look like?

Think about it...
I know it's kind of funny... but it made me think .. how do I represent myself. If someone had to pick a computer icon for me what would they pick?

~Rejoice in the Lord ALWAYS~

2008-01-18T15:35:00.000-05:00

Philippians 4:4-9

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

I think these verses are verse we pass by alot or just leave them because we hear them so many times. The other night I was laying in my bed praying and God laid Philippians 4:4 on my heart and I knew with out going to my Bible, so I began to say it outloud. But all day I had that verse running through my head. So finially I looked it up to see the rest of the verses around it. I felt God speaking so directly at perfect time to me. It is always amazing how God speaks to us through His Word. So I have decided to re- read Philippians. God is so good!

~Dreams~

2007-12-17T12:16:00.000-05:00

Dreams, we all have dreams of things we would like to do or try to do.
Some of mine are:

Taking ballet lessons again
Learning how to play the piano
Taking voice lessons again
Going rock climbing
Going back to Quebec to live or visit Going sailing
Learn how to play the guitar

I believe my dreams will come true with all of God's help. He will strengthen me and teach me how to do it all.

These were just some things that were running through my head, I just thought I would share them with you.

What are some of your dreams?

~Words~

2007-12-12T12:54:00.000-05:00

Are there words that really bother you when someone speaks them?

There are defiantly words that make feel sick inside when I hear people use them. I wish I could explain how much it makes me hurt when I hear certain words. I believe this something God is doing inside of me.

I have been thinking about it a lot lately. Why am I bothered my certain words? Then God brought this to my mind.

2 Corinthians 10:4-6
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 6And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.

The bolded text is what spoke to me. He said take every thought captive and make it obedient to me.

Maybe I sound too serious and I need to settle down. The truth is, is this is something that has been on my heart for a long time and I am choosing to stand on guard and take every word and thought captive in obedience of the Lord. Also when I hear someone calling me something that I do not agree with, I’ll be sure to let that person know. I know you might think it sounds lame. But there are certain words when I hear people use them they make me so angry when I hear people using them.

Why are we so quick to say negative words toward someone but slower to encourage them?

I have heard this saying over and over again before that it takes 10 words of encouragement to make up to for one discouraging word. This is true in many circumstances.

Basically I want my words to demonstrate Christ and who He is. I want people to see who Christ through my own language. It’s so easy for people including myself to fall into a place where we have ‘filthy talk’.

What is filthy talk? I am not the person to say what it is or is not. That is something for everyone to discern in their own lives. Filthy talk is something different for everyone.

Please do not get the impression that I do say anything bad or my thoughts are always good. That would be a lie. I struggle with this as much as many people do. But I want to try hard to watch what I say and think. There are days where I cannot think straight and my mind is consumed by thoughts of the world. Then I am reminded that God says my yoke is easy and my burden is light. I give over everything that is on mind and release it to Him. God is so great! He cares for us so much. Thank you Jesus!

Hebrews 3:1-3
Therefore, holy brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, the apostle and high priest whom we confess.

I am sorry if I haven’t made any sense I just really needed to express myself. If you do understand what I mean or what I am saying that is ok.

Encourage one another and build each other up in the name of the Lord.

~The Smell of God~

2007-12-10T11:12:00.000-05:00

Last night Jen came over to my house. We hung out for a while and then we began to pray. In that time of praying I have felt anything so peaceful in my life before. Both Jen and I felt a thick presence of the Lord among us. It was a quite time of prayer. We just sitting or laying down and soaking and talking to God as things came to mind.

I was lying on my stomach and as soon as I sat up I felt this aroma hit my nose. I looked at Jen and I knew she smelt it as well. It was like the smell of spring and a wood smell and then mixed in was a perfume smell. We were experiencing the aroma of the Lord. We were both smiling and just laying there quietly breathing in this beautiful smell of the Lord. I have never experienced anything like this. It was amazing. I felt so much peace. I wish I could describe it better. God is so good. We never asked for this or anything. God blessed us by pouring out His smell on us. I haven’t stopped smiling! Thank you Jesus!!

~Guard Your Peace~

2007-12-06T18:04:00.000-05:00

Peace - untroubled; tranquil; content.

As I mentioned in my last post God has been speaking peace into my life. Since probably about September where ever I am here about peace and I hear God speaking peace into me. I have had people praying it over me or talking to me about it. I am enjoying this place of peace.

Was there a period of time where I didn’t have peace?

I don’t think so I have God is blessing me with peace. I mean yes there are days where I am stressed, or I just don’t feel like talking to anyone.

I will never forget the words someone said to me as they got a word for me from God…it was “Guard your peace.” At first I did not understand a clue what this guy was talking about. I told me I had peace and I have felt at peace before he ever said anything to me. He said yes that is awesome now guard it! I said ok thinking not much of it but being well aware of what had just been said to me. That night!!! My peace had been stolen from me. I will not share what happened but I will say I had never felt so humbled and exposed before in my entire life. I really learned that night what it really might to GUARD YOUR PEACE!

God blesses us with peace but we need to guard that peace from the enemy. I didn’t to do that. I let it slip from my hands and I allowed anger and frustration to flood in.

Peace is one of the fruits of the spirit and this is something God is teaching me. I am feeling it and experiencing it for myself. Where ever I am I feel as though God is teaching me more about peace. I am really enjoying learning the deeper meaning to peace.

So often we can nudge this word off and look at other words more closely such as Love, joy patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. This is why I want to know more about this word and know why God is placing this word in front of my face where ever I go.

It’s interesting that God has been laying this word on my heart all the way leading up to the Christmas season. A song that comes to mind for me is Hark the Herald Angels Sing: in verse 1

Hark the herald angels sing

"Glory to the newborn King!

Peace on earth and mercy mild

God and sinners reconciled

"Joyful, all ye nations rise

Join the triumph of the skies

With the angelic host proclaim:

"Christ is born in Bethlehem

"Hark! The herald angels sing

"Glory to the newborn King!"

God’s peace is something we will never be able to fully understand. It evens says in the Bible God’s peace passes all understanding. You cannot see peace but you can tell when it’s around.

Romans 14:16-18
Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men.

John 20:21-22

Again Jesus said, "Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you." 22And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit.

GUARD YOUR PEACE!

~Love is Deep~

2007-12-03T20:36:00.000-05:00

So I imagine many of you have already read Christian’s blogs about our relationship. If you did not know he is out in B.C and I am in N.B finishing off school and then getting married to him in May. Christian has been pretty open in sharing his struggles and being real on his blog about his relationship with me.

Let me share with you my side of the relationship.

It’s been almost 7 months since I have last seen Christian. Has it been hard? YES, but I do not regret this separation at all. My relationship with him over these past 7 months has only grown deeper. You might find that hard to believe where we don’t ever see each other. Our only means of communication is either msn or the phone. I have learned so much about communication. You see Christian cannot see my face and know whether I am upset or happy... it is my job just to say what I am feeling. I have learned to stop hiding around the bush in hopes he might figure out what I am feeling, that is completely unfair to Christian and irresponsible of me. I need to be honest with Christian. I am not saying I haven’t been honest with Christian I saying I have learned more about just saying what I feeling and what I want instead having him trying to guess my emotions. I know this sounds easier said, but it is much harder done.I have struggled,grown and I have learned.

God has taught both Christian and I about love and how deep it runs. Everyone knows about 1 Corinthians 13: 1-8. Christian has been looking deep into that and as he has been doing this he been teaching me SO much about love and how deep it runs. I have spent some time studying it as well. I was involved in a small group at my church it just happened that the group started out by going over these verses. It was very powerful for me.

I have made some really big mistakes that I have felt to inadequate and worthless at times but yet Christian has been there for me saying I forgive you and I love you and let me pray for you.

I feel God’s peace all around me. God has been speaking peace into my life lately over and over again. He is even telling me to guard my peace. It has been amazing and I love being in God’s peace.

In these times of waiting for the wedding day I see God preparing me, the bride for the wedding day to meet my groom. He’s preparing my heart and teaching me many different things. My heart longs to God more. I just want Him to be glorified on our wedding day. I am a very excited bride to be and am looking forward to May 10th.

There is my honesty and mushiness.

P.s To all you girls be good to your guys and TELL them what you want and what your feeling. Do not expect them to just know. They are NOT mind readers.

~Deep Sea Diving~

2007-12-03T20:33:00.000-05:00

Jesus, tonight I ask that as I sleep I would dream of dreams of you and me deep sea diving. Show the sea. I want to explore all the different fish in the sea. Jelly fish, gold fish, whales, turtles, and frogs. Jesus I want to see it all. Show me the colors of the sea the blues, reds, purples, pinks, and oranges. Jesus I want to see it all. Show me all the rocks and sand that lay at the floor of the sea. Teach me how you made each and every little thing in the sea. Jesus I want to see it all. Please, take me deep sea diving tonight with you.

P.S I wrote this last night right before I went to bed I really felt God want me to write something about deep sea diving. It represents my relationship with Him and how I want to go deeper with Him in intimacy, I want to go deeper in to the Bible, and I want to go deeper into everything He is calling me into. God just laid it on my heart to write about deep sea diving. As soon as I began to write God began to speak to me through it all. I began to understand what he was telling me as I was writing this little letter as if it was a child writing to their father. :) I am so happy with God!!! He has given a lot of revelation on the simplest things. It's awesome!!!

~A Simple 'Hello' Goes A Long Way~

2007-08-23T20:04:00.000-04:00

My time here is very shortly coming to an end. I have say it's nothing to what I had expected. It's far more and far better than I had ever expected. I feel so blessed by being able to come here. Everyone I have met has been amazing to us girls. I know leaving here is not going to be easy. The relationships I have made here are solid life lasting relationships. I have experienced people being the church to us by giving there owe daily lives to help out ours. I have learned so much as I have been here. I can't tell you how thankful I am that I had the chance to come here. I wish everyone could come here and experience for themselves the life and the community at the cafe. It's something of it's own.

Every Tuesday and Thursday there is a group of young guys from rehab center that come in to help around the café with whatever needs to be done. At the beginning of the summer I really felt like God wanted me to build relationships with these guys. Was I scared? Yes, I was very scared but I excited as well. I was afraid and nervous. I felt like I didn’t know what to do or how to do what God was asking of me. I figured out, that that was exactly why He wanted me to build relationships with them because He wanted me to get out of my comfort zone and be Jesus to them. I was strictly relying on God because over half of the guys were much, much bigger than me and well….I was intimidated by them. I waited on God and asked Him what I should do. Over time giving them the simple ‘hello’ and ‘nice to see you here’, I began to have conversations with them and build trust with them. A lot of them began really open to me and tell me what brought them to the rehab center. They also told me things like what they want to do when they get older. Their dreams and visions of life, it really amazed to listen to these guys. I found God was ministering to me as I was building relationships with these guys. These guys have dreams of getting married, having children, they have careers. Some said they want to be actors.

Every week I would look forward to the day I would get to see them again and talk with them. I would eagerly wait for Tuesday and then once Tuesday was gone I would wait for Thursday. I made sure I was at the café to talk with them or even just ‘Hi’ and show my face there. I would pray for them at night. I can’t believe what God done in my heart since I have met them. All I want is for them to experience the love of God. The words that I am writing are nothing to what my heart feels.

One of the guys there dreams of being a rap artist. Last week some time I was showing him my blog. He asked me if he could write poem for my blog. I said sure. That would be awesome. He didn’t show up today but one of his friends gave me the poem. When I read it I almost began to cry because I really saw for the first time what God was doing in this guy’s life that I had been praying for.

Here is the poem he wanted me to post for everyone to see.

As a human I struggle every day but a beautiful voice says everything will be ok. And I always try to keep my faith because there is none that can take my God’s place. There’s so much I don’t understand in this world like our obsession with money, cars and sex and that makes me feel that we are lost but out God is a forgiving one who would never abandon His daughters and sons and we should be more thankful because He gave His only begotten Son to shed His blood to show that pain is love but we don’t pay attention but none of us want to meet Satan for that would be a horrible damnation but I know we are not perfect beings and a lot try to fit his needs and ever more think that could never be but maybe what really need is the love from me and you and He gave for us the greatest gift of all. The choice to either rise or fall but we spend more time trying to please others and we often end up losing ourselves and we often forget we have a purpose and we should remember God will never desert us.

This is the poem from the young guy I met at the café. I am going miss these guys so much. God I ask that you bless this young guy and that He may continue to grow in Your love. Show more of who you are. Thank You for the relationship I build with these guys. I am so blessed.

~Uncommon Grounds, Uncommon Summer~

2007-08-02T20:28:00.001-04:00

It's has been a while since I last posted anything on here. A lot has been going on.

As most of you know I am in Pennsylvaina working in a cafe here. God has been showing me so much. I wish I could word what my heart feels. I look around and I see a lot of heart broken people, but I also see hope in their eyes for this place. I see a lot people who feel unloved and worthless. That is why they come to cafe so people who love Jesus can love on them. I am telling you, it has been an amazing yet heart breaking experience as I have been hear. There have been times I cry myself to sleep on the behalf of other people who do not know the love of Jesus. Children as young as 5 years old are running around by themselves at 11 or 12 at night. God has been teaching me a lot as I have been here about so many different things. Somethings He is teaching me have been really, really challenging and some amazing! I have to say though that I am glad that I am here experiencing what I am experiencing and that God is opening up my eyes to new things. I have so many stories to share and I wish I could write every one out for you.....but if I did that I think my hands would be very sore.

A theme word of phrase I am learning about this summer would probably be something like "servent leadership". How do we do that? What does it look like? How am I doing it now? What can I change? Things like that run through my head. What do you think about servent leadership?

~My Offering~

2007-06-13T16:04:00.000-04:00

Your name is beautiful
Your name is sweeter than honey
Your name is like perfume poured out.
And I love You oh God.

And I cry out
To know you more
Oh Lord
I want to be
I want to be
Your servant Jesus

So take me ask I am
I give You my life
as offering
I’ll give you all I have

I pour my life,
my everything
at your feet
May it be a sweet fragrance
unto You Jesus.

I want to be like you Jesus
I want to be a imitator of Your Kingdom
Shave away my plaque
Refine my heart and purify me

So take me as I am
I want to dance with You again
The dance of intimacy
So, I give you my life
This is all I have
It’s my offering to you

I lay here and
absorb Your heavenly presence
Jesus
I am off struck by the
Weight of your glory

I look to you
To find my way
I look to you
To find my strength
I look to you

To find the love
that never fails.
Jesus
All I want to do
Is live my life for You.

Cause You are
My Father
You are my
Creator
My friend and brother
Jesus You are more than
Enough, I love you.

~What Are the Girls Running After?~

2007-05-29T16:38:00.000-04:00

I was just upstairs in my room praying and spending some time alone with God when God laid it very heavy on my heart to pray for girls. I really it was more the high school and young adult girls he wanted me to pray for but I pray for all girls. I had a vision of a girl. She looked like a model and then I got another vision right after that of a girl in a car with big sunglasses. She was laughing and was not watching the road while she was driving. I think might have been drinking. Then I saw her screaming because she crashed the car.

At this point it was when I asked God why I was getting these visions of these young women. He told me to pray for young women because many of them don't Me.

The world has got girls feelings like they have to be a certain person to "fit in".
The world says you need to be a size 0 to look beautiful
The world has got girls into not eating. They starve themselves.
The world has got girls thinking they have to dress a certain way to be expected. The world has got girls going drugs and drinking starting at a very, very young age - as young as grade 4. It breaks my heart.
The world has got girls believing that they are worth nothing.
The world has got girls giving themselves over to guys before marriage
The world has got girls running to pills, sex, cutting themselves, drugs, drinking when they are depressed.
The world has got girls questioning who they are
The world has got girls questioning happiness
The world has got girls questioning who is God and how many gods are there
The world has got girls questioninf who do should I worship?
The world has got girls asking themselves who are they living for

Every one of these things breaks my heart. When I was praying I began to cry because the enemy has such a strong hold on their lives that it hurts me to see that.
I began to pray against the works of the enemy and ask God to surround these girls and young women with His love. I prayed that they may find their idenity in Jesus Christ and not in material things like clothing, drugs, guys, make-up, etc.

WHO AM I IN CHRIST???
I am accepted...

I am God's child ~ John 1:12

As a disciple, I am a friend of Jesus Christ ~ John 15:15

I have been justified ~ Romans 5:1

I am united with the Lord, and I am one with Him in spirit ~ 1 Corin. 6:17

I have been bought with a price, and I belong to God ~ 1 Corin. 6:19-20

I am a member of Christ's body ~ 1 Corin. 12:27

I have been chosen by God and adopted as His child ~ Ephesians 1:3-8

I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins ~ Colossians 1:13-14

I am complete in Christ ~ Colossians 2:9-10

I have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus Christ ~ Hebrews 4:14-16

I am secure...

I am free from condemnation ~ Romans 8:1-2

I am assured that God works for my good in all circumstances ~ Romans 8:28

I am free from any condemnation brought against me, and I cannot be separated from the love of God ~ Romans 8:31-39

I have been established, anointed, and sealed by God ~ 2 Corin. 1:21-22

I am hidden with Christ in God ~ Colossians 3:1-4

I am confident that God will complete the good work He started in me ~ Philippians 1:6

I am a citizen of Heaven ~ Philippians 3:20

I have not been given the spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind ~ 2 Timothy 1:7

I am born of God, and the evil one cannot touch me ~ 1 John 5:18

I am significant...

I am the branch of Jesus Christ, the true vine, and a channel of His life ~ John 15:5

I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit ~ John 15:16

I am God's temple ~ 1 Corin. 3:16

I am a minister of reconciliation for God ~ 2 Corin.5:17-21

I am seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenly realm ~ Ephesians 2:6

I am God's workmanship ~ Ephesians 2:10

I may approach God with freedom and confidence ~ Ephesians 3:12

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me ~ Philippians 4:13

THE MORE YOU REAFFIRM WHO YOU ARE IN CHRIST, the more your behavior will begin to reflect your true identity!

I strongly believe God wants to do something in the lives of girls and young women. It's our jobs to be praying for them. Praying that they will come to know God and seek after His Kingdom. God wants us to get serious with our relationship with Him.

Note: To all girls God loves you so much. You are His daughter, His precious one, His child. He loves you just the way you are. You are beautiful in the eyes of the King. You make Him smile.

Those who know me well know that I have a real heart for girls and young women. I have a passion to pray for them and listen what God wants to do in the lives of women today. It really breaks my heart to see women running after worldly things to get fulfilled. Jesus protect them and open their eyes to your love. We need to be praying for girls and women to come to know God and His love.

1 Peter 2:9

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light

Remember Jesus died on the cross because He loved us that much. He would die on the cross if you were the only one on the earth. Why? Because He loves you so much and YOU are HIS child. He longs to have a relationship with the every one he created. With Christ we are FREE!!!

~Go West Young Man~

2007-05-28T17:04:00.000-04:00

It’s has been a while since I last wrote something here. Today I woke up very early. I woke up at 4:00am and headed to the air port. Why? My fiancé (Christian Gowan) left today on the plan to B.C. He’s going to be working in the church out there. He’ll be a parish evangelist there. He’ll be doing Saturday night services. The services will be more relaxed and laid back. They will be aimed at families with children and youth as well who don’t have families in the church.

In the mean time I am still in New Brunswick this year finishing my last year of Taylor. I am not going to see Christian for 11 months. I don’t count on seeing him during the Christmas break because we all know that it is really busy in the church during Christmas. The next time I see him for sure for sure though is April 2008 a couple days before my grad and then a week and a bit before we get married. Exciting!!!

I am really excited for Christian. I think God is going to use Christian to do some amazing things. I am looking forward to hearing all the stories. Am I sad that he is gone? Of course! It was really hard saying good bye and knowing I am not going to see him for 11 months. I find my comfort in Jesus Christ. Yeah I cry but I am also extremely happy that he’s out there. I know it all sounds confusing. I can barely write down what my heart is feeling because there are so many different emotions running through me right now.

I think it’s going to be a hard year yet amazing year for the both of us. It’s going to be hard that we are both so far away from each other but it’s also going be amazing for us individually. I know God is going take us both to an even deeper level of intimacy. I am SO excited for that! I am so hungry for more God as I write this blog. I just want soak in His presences.

One thing I do ask is that anyone who reads this that you would keep Christian and I in your prayers this year. I am sure some of you know that being separated from the one man or woman you love is very hard. All yours prayers will be well appreciated. Thank you.

2 John 1:3

Grace, mercy and peace from God the Father and from Jesus Christ, the Father's Son, will be with us in truth and love.

~A Revelation of the cross~

2007-04-06T15:42:00.000-04:00

It's been some time since I last posted something on here. I want to share with you is burning on my heart, but before I do that I want to tell that getting to where I am now was a long, long hall. I went through very dry season. I had a very hard time finding time as well as wanting to read my Bible and intercede. It was very hard.

Let me tell you though, I have learned things through this long dry season. I have learned for myself that even when it's dry we must seek God out with all our hearts (that is easier said, than done) I have experienced God's faithfulness, I have learned that the dry season is only a season... it's not forever!!! PRASIE THE LORD!!! I have learned that even in the driest times God will show Himself in unexpected ways!! Thank You LORD!!!

I am so full of the joy of the Lord. I have been brought out of this dry season. God has stirred this new passion, hunger and desire for me in my heart. Man I am so excited. I feel like my heart learned something. Ha if that makes any sense to you. I was watching a Todd Bentley Video and he was talking dwelling in the secret place. After I heard talk I felt my heart had been opened up to something new. I want to seek out God with all my heart, mind and soul. I want to dwell in the secret place. God has been giving so many more dreams, visions and words for people. I am so hungry!!!!!

Seriously there is so much I wish to share with you, but I can honestly I cannot put what my heart in feeling into words. The last couple weeks I have feeling God's love for his people. I was home group one night and I closed my eyes and I got vision of Jesus right before He was put on the cross. I saw Him getting beating and then I saw Him beating put on the cross. I felt as though I had revelation of the cross and God's love for us. Man it's incredible.

Today I went to the Good Friday service at my church. My dad and the Bishop carried down this huge cross from the back of the church to the front on their shoulders. Watching this was very moving. There was time anyone who wanted to go to the cross and kneel before it. I sat in my pew and starred at the cross. I began cry because it was so powerful. I felt God's heart I began to picture him on that cross.

It's easy for us to forget what God has done for us. I pray that everyone that reads this blog may have a whole new revelation of God's love for them and a revelation of the power of the cross. It's only through Jesus dying on the cross for us that we are able to have a relationship with him today. Remeber He died for You and me. He loves You so much that he was willing to die on a cross for you.I am so thankful for that. I pray that whatever it may be that is holding you back from knowing Jesus that, that may fall to the ground so you may draw near to Him. He is my first love and Ilove Him with all my heart. May He pour His Spirit down on you this night. I am so thirsty for more of God. Jesus fill me up with MORE OF YOU!!!

~The Heart of Jesus~

2007-03-14T09:26:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I was sitting in Tim's reading my Bible. God became to really show is heart to me through what I was reading. I was reading Matthew 15: 29-32. The Story of Jesus feeding the four thousand.

Jesus left there and went along the Sea of Galilee. Then he went up on a mountainside and sat down. Great crowds came to him, bringing the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute and many others, and laid them at his feet; and he healed them. The people were amazed when they saw the mute speaking, the crippled made well, the lame walking and the blind seeing. And they praised the God of Israel.

Jesus called his disciples to him and said, "I have compassion for these people; they have already been with me three days and have nothing to eat. I do not want to send them away hungry, or they may collapse on the way."

As I sat there I began to picture myself being there as Jesus was sitting on mountain side. There were CROWDS of people coming to see Jesus; they believed with ALL THEIR HEART that they would be healed. Imagine CROWDS of people who were lame, blind, crippled, and mute and many others. These people were all laid before Jesus.

Imagine this picture. It's it beautiful?

Jesus healed them all and people they were so amazed to see what He was doing. They were encouraged and their faith increased.

Jesus called his disciples to him and "I have compassion for these people, they have already been with me three days and have nothing to eat. I do not want to send them away hungry, or they may collapse on the way."

Right here I saw and felt the heart of Jesus. He has compassion for these people. He watched them as they follow him for 3 DAYS and then he healed them of their sickness. He had a heart and a deep love for them. He didn't want them to leave hungry.

I can go further with this but I wanted to share with you my heart and what is burning inside of me. I sit here and cry because I feel the heart of Jesus. He is showing me and having me experience the same feelings He felt for His people.

I wish there was a better way I could expression the deep love and compassion I am feeling right now. I am so overwhelmed and overjoyed with God.

Picture yourself there
What are you experiencing?
What are you feeling?
What are you seeing?
What do you see?
What is your heart saying?

God is taking me into a new season. I feel I have come out of a long and dry season and I am excited to enter into a new season. Jesus thank You so much for showing the things You have shown me.

~Engaged!~

2007-02-19T15:57:00.000-05:00

Yes many of you know Christian Gowan and I are officially engaged. Christian got down on his knees Friday night, February 16th 2007 asking if I would marry him. I said yes.

Hilary, Susan, Katie and Jen came home and they knew right away what happened. We all went over the chapel and began to worship God and give thanks. They all decided to pray over Christian and I. I was blessed and encouraged by everyone who prayed over us that night.

As it stands right now, we are thinking of getting married sometime in the beginning of May 2008....No set dates yet. We will keep everyone updated though.

Thank you Jesus for how you have directed both Christian and I in this relationship. All glory goes to You God.

Thank you to all of you who have been praying for us. May the Lord bless you greatly.

~Meeting Them Where They Are At~

2007-02-12T12:10:00.000-05:00

It's been a while since I last posted something. I just thought I would share with you want God is doing in my life. As some of you already know I try to go to Tim's on Tuesdays to talk with people about Jesus. I find that this experience has been so stretching for me. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and stepping into someone elses so I am able to meet them where they are at.

Last Tuesday I went to Tim's and I sat on my own for a while. After reading a book for a little while I spent some time looking at the people around me and praying for them. I asked God to make an opportunity where I can talk with someone. As I continued to pray my eyes kept getting drawn over to this one side of the restaurant. I saw that there was a man sitting there all by himself. He had been there for a while. He was probably in his late 60's early 70's. I felt God wanting me to talk with this man. So after sitting there and trying think things over in my head, such as how am I going approach him, what am I going to say, I finally I got the courage to get up out of my own seat and sit down with this man at his table.

I asked him how he was doing and if it was alright if I sat here with him. We talked about what he does for a living and what I am doing in school. Also I told what I would be doing after I graduate. It was a very short conversation because his friend came for him to pick him up. As he left I got up to leave as well. I got outside and at first I really bummed out because I felt really disappointed that I never got to share the gospel with or even talk to him similar interests. As I lelt Tim's praying for this man God reminded me of something.

What God reminded of was, I said just enough to that man for him to understand who I was, what I believed in, and what I do. Also God reminded me that I what just did was awesome. It's not everyday where someone of my age would sit down with a stranger much, much older than they are and give them the time of day to just listen to them. I felt God really encourage me after that because I felt really down for a little bit. I wasn't sure if what did was right. God just completely encouraged me. He reminded me of what I was doing and how rare it is for someone to talk with a stranger. I left praising God and praying for the man I met at Tim's.

Thank You Jesus for all that people I have met and all the opportunities you have created and are creating. You are so good!!

~What Is On Your Canvas This Year?~

2007-01-26T10:03:00.000-05:00

A couple of nights a go I was listening to a sermon on my laptop by Judah Smith. I found that God really spoke to me through this sermon. So I really want to share with you what God has put on my heart when I heard this sermon.

This is a new year. What does that mean though? With every New Year there are things that change, for the good and for the worse. Did you know that with every year it’s like we have this blank canvas, a new a fresh white canvas.

It’s exciting to think about a beautiful canvas every year. It’s up to us to find out from God what He wants to see on that canvas.

God gives us different seasons. It’s up to us to walk in obedience and walk in that season God has placed before us. As we walk out what God is calling for us on our lives then this will paint a beautiful picture on our canvas.

Now if we know what God is asking us to walk in and we don’t do it. Then the picture on your canvas will be blots of paints and it would really messy looking. It won’t be beautiful. Why is this? God wants us to be walking in the season He has placed for us.

We are His children and loves us, but it hurts Him beyond belief to see that His gifted and talented children are not walking in the calling He has set out for them.

I just want to relate these pictures together and how important it is for all to really press into God and His word and seek out what it is He has for us.

I think it’s important for all to ask the Lord what for in 2007?

What do want me to do?

As we seek after God more and more we become more intimate with Him. As you continue build a stronger relationship with God He will show you things that need to be taken away or possibly added on. God is our Heavenly Father. Like any Father is going to show us those things we need to put away.

For example when I younger I use play with Barbie’s, and dolls. I loved playing with them. As I grew older I came realize that I was getting too old to play with dolls. My mom decided to sell them at second hand store. After I got rid of them I felt better I even felt little older knowing I was ‘too old’ to still be playing to dolls.

1 Corinthians 13:11-12

11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

It’s the same with us today. Sometimes we carry things on from when we younger that shouldn’t be carry on as we grow older.

For example if you saw someone my age playing with a toy truck you would think that is really weird right. Maybe that is a little extreme but sometimes we don’t even realize t but we might we carrying on things we have not yet put away.

It’s important that each when have blank canvas we not only to ask God what goes on that canvas but also to ask him what do I need to put because I am older now.

God might want you to put away some things in the physical. It could be CD’s, tapes, books, clothes, magazines, movies anything. It’s you and God.

God might want to put away things in the emotional. It could be different attitudes, your way of approaching people,

As put things away we grow more maturely and also grow more intimately with God because are obeying what He is asking us to do.
I know that there are thing God has already layen on my heart that He is telling me to get rid off and to put.

He's showing the seasons I am to be walking. It's exciting, challenging, strentching all at once. Through it all we grow to know Him more which is so much better than anything else.

There are two questions I really want you two think about and leave with. I also want you to try to take time and ask God these questions as well.

1. What does God on my canvas this year?
2. What do I need to put away this year?

Take these questions to God

~Coffee and Conversation~

2007-01-17T09:11:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I decided to go to Tim’s in hopes I would be able talk to someone about Jesus. I went by myself. When I got there I bought a coffee for myself and sat down somewhere central so I see where most of the people were. I pulled out a book from my bag and began to read. I read for a little while until I was caught off guard when I accidentally over heard some men talking about preachers and the different churches. My ears perked up.

Now let me tell you in the corner of Tim's there was this crowd of men ageing from 60's -late 70's. They were all in getting breakfast and their morning coffee. As soon I saw them I felt like there was someone there I needed to talk to. I was a little intimidate by them because there had to have been as least 8 guys all talking theirs trucks fixing and other people's trucks.

So I am still sitting in my spot far away enough so doesn't look like I am watching but close enough to see them. haha I continued to read my book or at least try because my mind was on the group of people and I was so nervous to talk to them. So as I reading I just began to pray for the right opportunity to arise and for God to be in control of the situation. Then something came to me. I really wanted to go to the Baptist book room to buy a Bible. I also didn't know what direction in was in from Tim's because I had never gone to the new BRB. Then a man walked in to Tim's and got his breakfast and his coffee. He ended up seating fairly close to me. As I was thinking about talking to this man about 5 of the other men left. I was just about to turn myself to say hello to this man sitting just down the bench from me when a man from the table to was looking at with all the men called to him and asked him to come over. I knew then God wanted to go to THAT table where those men were. I was still nervous.

I decided to go and ask to them where the Baptist book room was? So there I was went I got up out of my seat walked right over these men and asked them... excuse would you know where the Baptist Book Room is? They had to think about it for a second but they did end up helping me about. After telling me where it was I asked them if they came Tim's every morning. I also told them I went to school here and what I doing. From there we ended up talking about ministry, the church and how they see that there aren’t as many people in the church these days, we talked about what Taylor College, we talked about a lot of different things. After that one simple question where is the BRB? It went from there and we just talked about everything to do with the church. I remember asking them what their names were.... they told me their names and then younger of the two looked at me and said ' what are writing a book?' hahah I laughed and said no I just enjoy talking with people and getting to know them. They were both very surprised by the fact I was talking with them but they did enjoy telling me stories. I had such a good time talking with them and sharing with them about Jesus and then them sharing with me. It was really amazing.

Thank You Jesus for opportunities like yesterday where I could share and talk about You with other people I do not know. You are good!!

~The Pouring Out!~

2007-01-13T15:17:00.000-05:00

Acts 2: 14 - 28

God’s promise is that He will pour His spirit out on all flesh. This began on the day of Pentecost where God poured out His spirit on the people. God continues to pour His Spirit until the day God will pour His Spirit on ALL flesh.

He does not say I will just sprinkle my Spirit here and maybe there, and I will chose who I want to sprinkle. No it does not say that. God will pour out his spirit out on to ALL flesh.

It’s like taking a big bucket of water and pouring it out on to soil so the seed may grow. God pours His spirit on us so we may grow more intimate with him.

What does God pouring out His Spirit on us look like?

Peter quotes on the day of Pentecost what the Prophet Joel prophesied. He prophesied about God’s fullness when he pours out His Spirit. You see what Joel prophesied was a fulfillment of the last days. The day of Pentecost was only the near fulfillment of the last days.
We know that we are living in the last days now.

Before this day God’s Spirit was only poured out in drops. In the Old Testament people would meet in the tent of meeting but it was only the priest’s who were allowed in the Holy of Holies. When you entered the Holy of Holies, it was only one person allowed in there at a time. They had to tie themselves to a chain so the people on the outside can pull them out incase they die there or fell or pasted out. This was not a pouring out of the Holy Spirit but it was God’s presences.

Now since Jesus’ crucifixion the veil in the tent of meeting dividing the Holy and the Holy of Holies has been torn and we are all free to worship as if we are in the Holy of Holies. But God had not yet poured out His Spirit.

What did the day of Pentecost look like?
What would it look like to see God pour out His Spirit on all flesh?

In verses 20- 21 Joel prophesy that even though the pouring of God’s Spirit will happen and it will be poured out on to all flesh. He continues to say that there will be judgment.

‘The sun shall be turned to darkness and the moon to blood, before the day of the Lord comes, the great and magnificent day. And it shall come to pass that everyone who calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. (ESV)

There is judgment. What are we willing to do? What are we willing to let go of for God to pour out His Spirit into us? Maybe we are holding we are holding on to things that are keeping us from getting closer to God, maybe our focus in our things not us God, Maybe our words and our actions are not reflecting God.

God is still going to judge us, this why we need to go to Him and confess our sins.

God has forgiven us. Peter quotes David in verses 25 -28.

'I saw the Lord always before me.Because he is at my right hand,I will not be shaken.Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will live in hope,because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy One see decay.You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.'

We have been redeemed through Jesus Christ dying in the cross for us. His Grace is Sufficient for us. God continues to fulfill His promise by pouring out His Spirit until the day He pours it out on to all flesh.

Call out to the Lord and ask him to pour out onto you. We can live in the presences of God, God’s Spirit pours out on to us because the veil has been broken and we are free to worship God as if we all were in the Holy of Holies.

~Cleaning Out My Closet~

2007-01-02T16:01:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year's Everyone!!!

Family time, Turkey, leftovers, game night every night, chocolate everywhere, late nights, many conversations, knitting with my older sister, movies…bad ones... and good ones, an exhausted dad day on Christmas day (he had 4 serves to do within 24 hours), and a family that is thankful to be together during Christmas and celebrate the wonderful birth of our Lord Jesus Christ and wait for His second coming.

It has been really interesting for me lately. I have been in the midst of cleaning out my room. I am actually really enjoying it. I am doing this because I really do not have any other time to do it other then the one month I am home in the summer. I have been finding all sorts of different things....papers, old poems I wrote when I was in elementary school, old notes I would write to friends during class, old dolls, and toys, pictures I had drawn( ha I was amazed with my drawing abilities at that age).

I felt like I walking through the very stages of my childhood all over again. There were pictures of me when I was all of 3. I saw a picture of myself and my best friend Holly when I live in Quebec. Oh it brought back so many memories. As I looked at all the things on shelves, in my closest it brought back the simple mind set I had about life. The imagination and the things I would believe triggered within me. I had such a creative nature.

One other I have been experiencing is how important it is to stay in touch with friends. I miss all my high school friends and I wish I had the chance to stay in touch with them. I do what I can by talking to them online. I wish I could spend time with them. There is only so much one can do. Part of it is that we have really grown apart. I know and understand that they are in different places in life but I wish they would see how important this is to me.

I am also realizing how important it is to stay in touch with those who don't go to school with you and live outside of the city and/or the province. I came to realize that I have been doing a horrible job at staying in touch with people. I think a lot have a hard time with this ... or am I on my own. What I want to do for myself is get into the habit of e-mailing and staying in touch NOW so that when I leave college and am out on my own I hope that I can still stay in touch with my closest of friends.

I am sorry to all my friends that I have done such a bad job in keeping in touch with all of you. Please forgive me. I really want to do a better job at staying in touch with everyone.

Well that is all for now folks. May God Bless you in this New Year!!

~I Have Been Chosen~

2006-12-23T17:30:00.000-05:00

Lately I have been thinking about my next couple of years and where God might want me. Questions spring in my head like….

What am I going to be doing this summer?

Where am I going this summer?

Where are you calling me God?

Where am I going after I graduate?

What will I do?

What do you want from me?

What can I do?

Let tell me you I am not worried at all I am more just thinking about what God is planning for me in the next couple of years. It is rather exciting. I look to God for direction and guidance with these questions. I give them all over to Him. I give my thoughts, my dreams, and my life to Him.

One thing that has been popping up for me in the last little while is Ephesians 1 after I read that chapter I found it very encouraging to me especially where I am right now. I encourage you all to read or re-read it. It is so good. There were a couple verses that really stuck out to me I’ll share a few with you.

In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will, in order that we, who were the first to hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory. And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession—to the praise of his glory.

When I read these verses and the rest of chapter one, I really felt God speaking that into me. I felt him confirming my thoughts and my questions. Saying ‘everything is in my hands Jessie, just trust me.’ I felt so encouraged. I find that every time I read it I feel more and more wrapped in God arms. I feel the peace of Christ all around me. I so encouraged. FOR HE IS AMAZING GOD!!! HE IS BEAUTIFUL!!! I want to be wrapped in His Glory!! Thank You Jesus!!!!

Take these verses and be ecouraged. Make these your own between you and God.

WE HAVE BEEN CHOSEN BY THE KING OF KINGS AND THE LORD OF LORDS. THE EVERY HAND THE CREATED THIS WORLD HAS CHOSEN US TO BE HIS OWN CHILDREN. THE HAND THAT CREATED THIS WORLD WAS ALSO BORN IN THE MOST HUMBLING OF PLACES… A STABLE. JESUS YOU ARE SO GOOD!!!!

~Breathe~

2006-12-18T21:37:00.000-05:00

Breathe in
Breathe out

Every breath I take
I breathe in Your Kingdome
You’re Holy Spirit
You’re Creation
You’re Glory

Breathe in
Breathe out

I absorb the quietness
The moment
Where I am with You

Jesus said
Fear not
For
I am
With you

In the Stillness
You are there

Be Still
And know
That
I am
God
~ Psalm 46:10

Thank you Jesus, for You are so great and Your love is unchanging. For you breathed life into me.

~Update~

2006-12-16T22:32:00.000-05:00

Little bit of an update from moi

-> Yesterday was my one and only exam
-> All done classes and exams!!! YAY
-> 6 days till I head home to my family
-> Tomorrow night I am in a Christmas play at my church
-> From the 20th to the 22nd myself and all the other student are doing a mission
-> 22nd I head home for the Christmas Holidays
-> 23rd My older sister comes home from Alberta for Christmas. So excited to see her.
-> 24th Christmas Eve!
-> 25th Christmas day! Happy Birthday Jesus!!! Happy Birthday Christian!!

God has been showing things He wants to clear out of me. I can say some things are easy and well others… not so much. What I can say is that I do like the feeling of being clean and I like it most when Jesus cleans me. I am finding the Lord taking things that I do and that are natural to me and saying-‘get rid of this and that’ I love my Father as my Father loves me. I Thank God, for showing me where I am wrong so I can continue to pursue Him more deeply.

Just wanted to share with you a little bit of what is going on for me.

Merry Christmas!

~Truly Was An Answer To Prayer~

2006-12-10T20:10:00.000-05:00

Today was an amazing day!! It truly was an answer to prayer. Many of you know my Dad. Many of you also know that he is a solid believer in Christ. Many of you don't know that I have dreamed of the day where my dad can see for himself where I go to church and how the community here worships God as one body. I had been praying for this day for a while, that my dad and I could worship together and he could see me worshiping God in a different setting than he is use to.

My dad drove here just to go to church with here today!!! We got to church and he and my pastor hit it off right away. As I was singing and worshipping I felt so thankful that my dad was able to come to church with me. I began thank God for His goodness. As I stood there next to my dad worshipping my heavenly Father, I began to cry with tears of happiness. This truly was an answer to prayer!! My dad said he really enjoyed the service and loved what my pastor had to share. He also said that he had preached on something very similar to that the week before so it was really good.

Thank you so much Jesus. You are so faithful and so wonderful. I love you so much! Continue to do what you’re doing in me.!!

~Where Are The Women and Young Girls?~

2006-12-08T14:55:00.000-05:00

I just recently write a paper for school of Chinese women and girls, and why they are missing. The question is why are there so many women and young girls missing in China? It is because there are people form Easter Europe that human traffic these women and young girls. They become poverty to pimps. What are they used for? Their jobs are now to sell their bodies for money. This sickens me. My hearts breaks for these people. The pimps have complete control over them. They can torture them, chain them, drug them, and put in them into brothel homes. There are young girls as young as 4 are being rapped on a daily basis. Jesus help people. The sex trade is a multi - billionaire industry. These women have no choice but to do have say they are told. Their lives have been snatched away from them. It hurts me so much. This isn't just happening to Chinese the women; it’s going on all over the world. This is the slavery of the 21st century.

God please I am asking for a break through. I am pray for freedom from slavery. Change the hearts of these people who are buying the women and children. Have these people turn the hearts to you Jesus.

It's time to be praying for women and young girls all around the world who have been bought into sex slavery. JESUS SHOW YOUR FACE TO THESE PEOPLE!!!! MY HEART ACHES! IT BREAKS!!!

Human Trafficking video on Youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwAhti93QYU

It's worth watching.

God Bless you this day

~Dream~

2006-12-05T12:15:00.000-05:00

Lately I have been praying for the salvation of my friends from high school. God has laid them heavy on my heart.Monday night I remember I had a dream.

In my dream I was crusade or something it was take place underneath with huge tent. I remember John Crowder was there and he was praying for people by laying on of hands. The only people there I knew were all my friends my high school. I remember John was first laying hands on all the guys. I looked over and these guys I once knew unbelievers were getting filled with the Holy Spirit. I saw some of them weeping.I saw hearts being changed and transformed. I saw that there was conviction in their eyes. I remember looking around and almost being in tears because I had been praying for this day for so long.

Then John came over to me, I didn't look at him I was so focused on what God was in all my friends that I never even thought about myself. As John got closer I felt the presences of the Holy Spirit on him. It was so thick. I remember there was some of my friends standing behind me incase I fell.

Jesus you are so good. I love you so much. You how much I care for my friends. I pray that you will continue to work in them and show them more of who you are. I pray that they will stop rejecting you and begin accepting you. JESUS THEY NEED YOU!! If anyone feels the Lord is saying something to you about this dream please feel free to let me know. Thanks!

~Fervent Prayer~

2006-11-27T19:17:00.000-05:00

Alright so last night I attempted to post a blog but then my laptop froze on me and I wasn't very happy. It has been amazing though with everything God has been showing in the last couple of days. I am so marveled by His works and His beauty.

I have been re-reading Revelation and last night Christian and I ended up talking a lot about it. It was really cool what we both had to share about it.

Revelation 4: 8 Each of the four living creatures had six wings and was covered with eyes all around, even under his wings. Day and night they never stop saying:
Holy, holy holy
is the Lord God Almighty,
who was , and is, and is to come.

Imagine declaring God's praise day and night. Not because someone told you to or because it was some sort of conference and everyone was doing it. But because YOU wanted to pray and declare His name DAY AND NIGHT WITH NO STOPPING!!!! HOLY HOLY HOLY is the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY!!! WHO WAS AND IS AND IS TO COME!!!

Picturing the four creatures saying this over and over again to me is so beautiful. It's a fervent pray.

Lately The Lord has been showing me over and over again the words 'fervent prayer.' I really feel God is taking me into a season of fervent prayer. Fervent Prayer - passionate, intense, sincere, enthusiastic, fiery.I feel like something has changed in me after last night something good, something wonderful. I feel even closer to God then the night before. I love Jesus so much. I only want more of Him. I hope that this blog isn't just another blog for you; I hope it's not just a bunch of words on a screen to you. I hope you realize I am sharing my heart with you. I am sharing my personal relationship with Jesus Christ with you.

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come!!!

Revelation 8: 1 When he opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven for about half an hour.

Oh wow!!! Silence in heaven? Imagine all those crying holy to the Lamb, all the elders all those who were worshiping God, all of heaven went silent. I can't even picture it. Can you? It's so powerful to think about it. All of those creatures who were crying Holy, Holy, Holy... day and night were silent when the seventh was being opened.

I want to know You more Jesus, I want to know more about you. The only I can verbally express right now is that I love You Lord. I LOVE YOU!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! GOD YOU SO GOOD!!! SO POWERFUL!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

~I Love You Dad~

2006-11-25T14:05:00.000-05:00

I know it has been a while since I last blogged. I was just taking a break. God has been showing me so much. Taking little simply things in my life that I already knew but God would give me more of revelation about it. It has been amazing. God you are so good to me.

One thing God revealed to was something so amazing. It was during the Miracles in the Maritimes conference. The plan was that my dad would be coming to the conference during the Saturday sessions but it turned out that Friday night when I came home I got a message that he would not be at the conference. I was disappointed because I really wanted to see him there. Then during worship at the conference I began to pray and intercede for him. I began to cry because I knew how much I loved my dad and how much I wanted to see him there. Then I began to cry harder because it was then God showed me something amazing. He was showing me how much my dad loved me and then how much more God my father loves me. Then I became very thankful that my dad did a very good job at showing me and teaching about who Jesus is since I was a young girl. Also by him being my dad and being the father figure in my life
he did not defile my perception on Jesus.

I have to say that where I am today is hugely influenced by my dad. I looked up to my dad in so many ways. I love listening to him speak about his fiery relationship with God. He has such wisdom and understanding. All I can say is that I love my dad and I love him more for introducing me to Jesus.

~Miracles in the Maritimes~

2006-11-01T09:16:00.000-05:00

MIRACLES IN THE MARITIMES!

Hey Everyone!

Reminder that there is a conference in Saint John at the Trade and Convention center. It begins November 2 and run till Novemeber 4th. Thursday evening, all day Friday and all day Saturday. I encourage everyone to go. The speakers are Brian Simmons and John Crowder. The worship is lead by Mike Smith. It's a worship conference everyone is welcome. It's $25 for a student and $45 for adults. I hope to see you there.

FRIDAY NIGHT IS FREE!!!!!
Come and bring all your friends! John Crowder will be speaking.....I think if not it will be Brian. Come!! The Friday night session starts at 7:00pm! God Bless you all!

~Your Daughter~

2006-10-30T13:14:00.000-05:00

I am your daughter, a lover of you, my Father.
You died for me, for my sins.
You have washed me clean with your blood.
You have me in your arms
And have never stopped loving me
You take amazing care of me
You have been so faithful to me

When I call on you I know you are there
I wait for the day that I can sit on your lap.
I look around and see the creativeness you have.

Who would have thought of clouds so white and fluffy?
Only You Lord
Who would have thought of the different seasons in a year?
Only you Lord
Who would have thought of all the different animals and their names?
Only you Lord.

I want more of you.
Change me inside and out
Clean me
I love you

I want to dance with you
I want to laugh with you
I want to run with you
I want to sing with you
I want to walk with you
I want you to be the center of my life
I love you, I want you.

Here I am, your daughter Jessica.
Use me to your will. I am your servant
I worship, I will live every inch of my life
for you, You are the King of Kings.
I find joy in walking your path of light

Thank you Jesus
You are the ultimate Father.

I love you

Your daughter

Jessie

~The Healing Power of God~

2006-10-27T09:54:00.000-04:00

Last night we had youth group here at the college. There were about 8 of us in total. It was the most amazing night ever. We began by going around the room and encouraging each other. It was so moving to hear what these youth had to say about each other.

At the end of the night we decided to pray for healing on those you needed healing. We sat together in a tight circle. One of the youth sat in the middle of the circle so we could pray for her. We didn't lay hands on her or anything we left that we wanted to first wait on the Lord to find what He wanted to do and if there was a certain person that God wanted to use to pray over this girl. After waiting on the Lord for a little while,we asked if anyone was getting anything. Two girls said they were feeling tingling and heat in their hands and another felt the same but she also felt oil in her hands. It was amazing. One of these three girls prayed for the girl in the middle and she was instantly healed from her neck soreness and cough. God totally lead youth group and move in the way He wanted move. Praise the Lord for is good.It was amazing watching these young people be used by God.
1Timothy 4:11-13
Command and teach these things. Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching.

God is so good. No can say that children or youth are too young to hear from God. God is a powerful God and He can do anything and work through anyone He desires. Praise God for is healing power!! :)

~When I am weak, then I am Strong!~

2006-10-26T11:30:00.000-04:00

My thoughts right now are flowing. I cannot get over all the things God is doing for me lately. I want to thank him for the great forgiveness he has for me and everyone. I am in such awe of Him lately. I feel like he stripping me away. It's a good thing. It is really hard but I know it’s rewarding in end. It enjoy in my sufferings. Who am I to say 'I am suffering though?' Have I never suffered like Jesus or even Paul? No. What God is having me walk through is nothing to what Jesus did for e on the cross.Thank you Jesus for being my friend and holding me close you in every area of my life.

Lately people have saying to me "Jess you are so real." Honestly I really do not see that in myself. I can tell you that I am not hiding anything and I will be honest with people. I speak the truth in love. I guess it's just one of those things that I never saw in myself .... real. Hmmm maybe it's something to think about. It's something I continue want to be better at with everyone.I feel weak and helpless. I look to God for strength.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
I am so in love with God right now. I cannot get over how much He has done for me. How great is the love God lavishes on us! I am a sinner, I do mess up. I don't want to pretend I am someone that I am not. My desire is to be transparent. I want to be a carrier of God's glory. I also do not want to hide my sufferings. Remember we share in our sufferings. Some days it can really suck to be real with someone. I can sit and say though it encourages me. God doesn't call us to frost things over with the word 'nice'. He wants us to be imitators of Him. In doing that we must be real and speak the truth in Love and be obedient to His calling for our life!

Thank you Reed Flemming for all you have taught me through your sufferings. You have no idea how much you have enouraged me. You are a blessing. Thank you. May the Lord himself bless you richly

~Interview with God~

2006-10-20T08:55:00.001-04:00

Hey everyone a friend of mine sent me an e-mail with a poem. I want to share it with you. No she didn't write it. It's from a website -http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/presentation.html
There is a presentation of the poem if you go to that website. It's called Interview with God. Click view presentation. It's a really simple poem. Anyways enjoy.

Blessings

~What is Love?~

2006-10-19T11:37:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I went to KVHS with Allan and Dan. We were apart of the health fair. Haha we were the “the spiritual” table. We were there to talk to the students about love. We talked to them about the four Greek words of love. Many of you probably already know these words but they were….

Storge- this means affection. It’s the affection you get from your parents. It’s a love we are born into.
Enos – this mean physical, sexual love. Something you would share with someone after you are married.
Phila- This is is taken from the city of Philadelphia. That city stands for the city of brotherly love. So Philia is like the love you would have between yourself and a best friend, that tight connection.
Agage- This means unconditional love, selfless love. We all know the great example of this love is Jesus dying on the cross for us. He gave his life us on the cross.

It was really interesting because some of the questions we would begin conversation with students was …..When you think of the word love what do you think about? What does love mean to you? Has anyone told you they love you? What does someone mean when they tell you they love you?

The reaction of the students was interesting. I know we got some of them thinking, because they never thought about the word love before. One of them said “Love is love, no one thinks about it.” Another person said that “Love is word that is misused too much.” I would have to agree with this person. Then still many people said when asked the question what do you think someone means when they say they love you? They responded by saying “Ah I don’t know…. That they care about me.”

What blew my mind is that they students don’t even know what real love is. They don’t even know what it is to love. Many of them I bet were coming from broken homes. Spilt families, and divorced parents. I bet many of them don’t have the chance to experience love even at home from their family. It was so sad leaving that place and knowing that these students don’t know what REAL love it.

One thing I didn’t mention was that the Challenge for both Allan and I was that we were not aloud to mention what we believed in unless they asked us and we were not aloud to ask them. Also we weren’t aloud to talk about Jesus. We couldn’t pray for them or prophecy. I found it to be a big challenge to evangelize to a group of people with using the name of Jesus. WOW! It really opened my eyes to what some cultures have to do to spread the word. I couldn’t believe it. I learned so much just in that time. I got the chance at just watching students and looking at them and seeing where they are at. God showed me show much. I do know that they definitely need love. They need to know what real love is. Remember God is love and if we don’t know God then we don’t know love.

~His Bleeding Heart~

2006-10-07T10:10:00.000-04:00

I look up
And see
This beautiful
Heart
From it
I see it
Bleeding
Drops of
Blood

Looking
More closely
I saw clear
Spring water
On the outside
Of the heart
The spring water
Began to
Drop
With the blood
Side by side

Who’s heart
Is this?
I thought
To myself

It’s my Father’s
Heart
His heart
Bleeds
For his people
His love
We will never understand
His agape
For us.

My heart runs
And jumps
For my Father
I want to
Know Him
More.

My thoughts and
My feelings
Are not even
Making sense
Right now

I feel like
Diving
Into deep water
I feel like running up
To the highest
Mountain
And calling out to
God “I WANT MORE GOD!”
With my
Arms stretched
Wide open.

I love You
My heart yearns
For You
Oh God You
Are amazing
I trust you
I give you
My life.

I am here
Your daughter
Jessica
Here I am
I am Yours
I am listening
To You.
Take me as I am.
I want more.

For the joy
Of the Lord
is my strength

Thank You Jesus
For dying
on the cross
for me
So I could have
A relationship
With You.

Thank You
For your
Heart
That bleeds for me
And all your people.
Thank you.

~Compassion For God's People~

2006-10-04T13:48:00.000-04:00

Read - Luke 7:11-16

Now imagine this huge crowd following Jesus into this town. There is probably lots of talking going on. I bet there is children laughing and running in and out of the people around them.

When Jesus arrives at the city gate He sees a widow and not far from her he sees people carrying her dead son. She had already lost her husband and now she has lost her only son. Her heart is torn. She clearly has gone through a lot. Imagine being like this woman, losing your husband or wife, and then not long later losing your only child.

What would your heart be feeling?

Would you be mad?

Would you be confused?

I know it’s awful to think about it but this real. This woman was probably feeling these emotions. I bet she probably doubted if God even loved her, because her son and her husband have both been taken away from her.

Instantly Jesus’ heart went out to this woman. He went to up her and said “Don’t cry.”

Here I like picture Jesus walking up to the woman and looking at her straight in the eyes and giving her this loving and compassionate smile while saying don’t cry.

After saying this to the woman Jesus walks over to the coffin and touches it!!!

The touching of the coffin was uncalled for. It was very uncleanly for someone to touch the coffin of a dead person. By Jesus touching the coffin He risked being made “unclean”. Obviously that didn’t matter Jesus.

The story is not even over and Jesus has drawn people to watch what is going on.

1.He goes the widow and says ‘don’t cry’. Who says that to someone who has lost both their husband and their son?
2.He goes and touches the coffin of a dead person.

No one asked for help from Jesus, but Jesus saw the problem and acted upon it, because He loved them.
Now as He is touching the coffin He says “Young man, I say to you get up!”
As soon as Jesus said those words, the young man sat up and began to talk. Then Jesus handed Him over to his mother.

Now this would be number 3. Jesus raises someone from the dead.

Now I imagine the crowds heads turned and are wondering what just happened.

Don’t you see when Jesus said “Young man, I say to you get up!” He was giving an order. That order completely destroyed and defeated death.

This story is incredible. You really get a feel of Jesus’ heart for the people.

Why does it seem so hard sometimes for us to reach out to these people?

God has been teaching a lot lately about outreach. I know sometimes when we think of the word outreach we think of gathering together people and doing some sort of organization to reach out to a certain crowd of people. Yes this is outreach…..but I believe that outreach should be way of life not something that we do as we gather together to organize something. You see, Jesus constantly reached out to the people and showed real love and compassion for them.

Why are we so afraid to show love and compassion?

One thing God has lain on my heart in last year or so is love. He has been teaching me what love really is. He has been teaching me about real agape love.

Agape is unconditional love. He has been teaching to agape people who don’t agape me.
Love is one of those things that we think we know what it is all about but it’s probably something we don’t look into enough.

We constantly need to be asking God to show us how to love, teach us what love is and what does love look like. These are all simple questions but important questions. I believe as we reflect on questions such as these we build a stronger relationship with Jesus and then He will us a heart to reach out, just as Jesus did. But we must not be afraid.

2 Corinthians 1: 3-4

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

~Little Update for October~

2006-10-03T12:18:00.000-04:00

October has come and I am well into the school year. I am placed at Grace Harvest Church. I am really excited about being there and being apart of that community. I am excied for all the things God has planed for me this year.

The month of September was great. I really got to know the rest of the students. There is a girl in my house named Hilary. She is a first year student and she come all the way from B.C!! She is crazy. I am also living with Susan who is from Newfoundland. I lived with her last year. I love her. Then I am also living with Rachel who is from Ontario. She is really nice. Yes that is right there are 4 girls living together from all different parts of Canada! It's great!

Most nights guys with call our house and we will all hang out. Sometimes we will watch a movie or play dutch blitz. If we don't do that, we normally head to the chapel to worship as a community. I love it because we know each other so well. We are able be open and honest with each other. Things are going great around here and I am happy we are such a tight group of people. I know I can say this a mean it in every way, that we have such a tight bond with each other we are like a family. We are a family.

Here are some pictures....

Erin (second year student), Myself (second year student) and Hilary(first year student). Erin and I dyed our hair and Hilary cut her bangs. We cut Erin's as well.

Katie( first year student) and I being silly in her car! haha Hilary( first year student) relaxing in our living room

Susan and Rachel ( both 3rd year students) at a bonfire.Christian(3rd year student) and I at the bonfire at mispec beach

Well that is all for now friends. Just wanted to give you a little update of what has been happening.

Peace out

~Do You Like Deep Water?~

2006-09-22T16:53:00.000-04:00

Luke 5: 1-11

When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, "Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch."

Jesus blessed Simon with lots of fish. So much fish they needed two boats to hold it and even then the boats began to sink. Imagine having so much fish that there was no possible way for you to carry it in your boat without your boat beginning to sink?

Jesus uses the situation with the fish for Simon to come and follow Jesus as His disciple.
Jesus said “Put out into DEEP WATER. Maybe Simon wasn’t in a deep enough area for catching fish. What Jesus really wanted was for Simon step out in faith and PUT his nets in to deep water.

Let’s look at this for ourselves. Many times when I think of deep water I think of, sharks, lots of fish, whales, jellyfish and lots of other kinds of sea creatures.

I know I am not much of a lover of water or swimming at that. I am a go-in-get-wet and get out kind of person. If that was my life with God do you think He would be happy with me? I do know He would want to see better in me. God does not want to see us in the shallow end. He wants us in the deep end, catching the “fish”.

What is the deep end? It’s when we let God use us to every opportunity and we obey Him fully even when it might be extremely hard. Also it’s when we use our gifts to His glory.
One of Simon’s gifts would have been the obvious, fishery. Even though he was out in the water all the time he used that gift to God’s glory.

When Jesus told Simon to put his out into deep water Simon did. He obeyed God. He had no idea to why Jesus was asking him to do it but he did it anyways.

That is what God wants to see in us. He wants to see that He can tell us to do something and then for us to do it.

After Simon catches all the fish Jesus says to Simon “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will catch men.”

Jesus is saying that Simon is going evangelize to the people and bring them to true life with Jesus Christ. It’s almost as though Jesus is sending Simon out.

Now looking at ourselves again we are as well called to “catch men” We all know the great commission.
Matthew 28:18-20
The Jesus came to them and said; “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Now just as God called Simon to the deep water, so does God call us to the deep water.

Think of it this way. At football game or a soccer game, there will be people standing on the side lines watching and then there will be people in the game playing. God does not want us standing on the side lines watching He wants us in the field. He wants us want us to give it all we got under HIS couching!!

So now let me ask you some questions.

Do you like deep water?

Where are you in your life with God?

Are you in the shallow end by the shore?

Or are you in the deep end giving it all you have for God?

~God WOWED Me Today~

2006-09-20T19:00:00.000-04:00

Tonight my house mate Hilary and I went to aerobic. I really enjoy it because it's a christian community of all of women who love and serve the Lord. It's amazing. One thing the aerobics instructor got us to think and pray about were things such as worship, discipleship, ministry, mission and fellowship.

It was interesting because as I was standing there doing my thing I really began to think and I was thinking hard on these things. I prayed about them as well. I really felt God's presence over whelm me as I was there. I felt such peace when began to think about them and pray about them . I also felt God teaching and giving me questions to think about. Kind of like the child again. I was amazing. I was so moved. The questions God laid on my heart were :

Do we really know what it means to worship God our King?
Do we really know what it mean to be a disciple of God our King?
Do we really know what ministry is in the eyes of God our King?
Do we really know what mission means to God our King?
Do we really know what it means to fellowship as God our King did?

Please don't get the idea that I am stressing out over these question because I am not. I feel really God's peace over these questions. I really that with these He take me to a deeper level. I want to know more and more about God. He excites me every day. It's so neat how God can teach you in the simplest and smallest ways but they seem SO HUGE to you personally. HA! I love it! GOD YOU ARE GREAT!! Maybe this all sounds so off the wall to everyone, but even if it is I want you to know that God has changed me inside and out and that He got me thinking about simple things in a BIG way. It's hard to explain but I love it. If you do understand what I saying I hope you were able to get something out of this. Well I must go. I am getting way too excited right now. May God Bless you all always in all that you do.

John 4:24~ God is spirit, and his worshippers must worship him in spirt and in truth.

~Like Father, Like Daughter~

2006-09-16T21:54:00.000-04:00

God has been laying a lot on my heart lately. I have been in a major thinking mode lately. I am really enjoying it. It has been drawing me closer and closer to God. Questions pop up in my head like "How can someone serve the Lord and have many people be influenced by them in a good way and then walk away from God as if it was nothing?" Questions running through my head such as "where are their hearts?" It hurts me deeply because I truly love them and my heart breaks for them. People that I looked up and respected have fallen away or are being tempted.

One question that keeps coming to me is "What if all your friends left me Jessie? Would you still you follow me with all your heart?" I am at place where it's just God and I and I only know to know Him more. I don't want to ever get in a place where I depend on other people for faith or idolize their faith. I am thirsty, I want more.

I really think God is taking me back to a place of simplicity. I go to God and ask Him the simplest questions, but I ask because they are on my heart. I'll lay in my bed thinking and asking God why about so many different situations. I feel like a child asking her father why and watching him intensely so I can grow and be like him. I can’t even fully express the feelings I have right now. I feel like I am going to explode. I am so fascinated by Him.

Psalm 42:1-2
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?

~My Father's House~

2006-09-14T16:41:00.001-04:00

Luke 2:41-52
Why were you looking for me? Did you not know that I must be in my Father’s house?”

Let’s look at this verse in the perspective of Mary and Joseph. Imagine yourself as one of them you’re looking every where for your little boy. You are worried of where he might be. You search for him for 3 days. Then finally you find him. You are so relived! The first thing your boy says to you when you find him is
“Why were you looking for me?”
Let’s stop for a second.

You have been traveling for 3 days, searching high and low for your little boy. You were worried sick about him. That is not exactly something you would expect out of anyone that you haven’t seen in 3 days. You are probably a little taken back by that question. Then your little boy continues to say to you “do you not know that I must be in my Father’s house?”
Alright so by now you are probably really thrown off by everything your boy has just said to you.

Jesus was a boy of only 12 years. When he asked his parents “Do you not know that I must be in my Father’s house”? Jesus was not referring to Joseph. He was talking about his own personal relationship with God. He realized he had something special with God. So when he was talking about his father’s house he was talking about God not Joseph. Joseph is only Jesus’ ‘legal’ father. Also it was strict that no Jew would call God ‘Father’. So when Jesus said to His parents ‘I must be in my Father’s house’ it showed His love for His heavenly Father. He had desire to walk out all that God was calling him to do through out his entire life. Jesus walked in complete obedience and humility.

What I really enjoy about this is that Jesus was only 12 and He had wisdom that no one could understand. He had a desire to be in God’s presence and to have a personal relationship with Him. Jesus leads by example. He wants us to enter into God’s presence, to seek after Him, to love him and obey Him.

Just think we are the temple of the God, the temple of the Holy Spirit. We have the privilege of God reigning within our hearts.

1 Corinthians 6: 19
Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?

How does it make you feel knowing that God is living within you?

He dwells within us, already knowing everything about us. The Spirit that lives in us is the same Spirit that formed the heavens and the earth.

So what are we going to do about this?

Are we going just stay complacent and not pursue a deeper relationship with the King who finds His home in our hearts?

Or are we going to pursue God who chases us everyday?

Seek after Him as He seeks after us. Do you thirst and hunger for more of a deeper and intimate relationship with Him?

Do we, like Jesus want to be in our Father’s house?

~The Skate Competition~

2006-09-10T21:48:00.000-04:00

Well today we had the skate competition. I have to say that it turn very well. In our head we were all expecting something like 20 or 30 but we ended up with way more then 20 0r 30. It was a great day. The weather was perfect.
Here are some pictures of the afternoon.

Thank you to all those you helped out and also thank to everyone who prayed for us before and during the skate comp. God work wonders today! All glory goes to Him.

~First week at Taylor~

2006-09-09T19:41:00.000-04:00

Well it's been a wonderful first week at school. I have enjoyed getting to know all the new students. I live with 3 other girls. They are Hilary, Susan, and Rachel. They are all great girls and awesome to hang out with.

This week all the students have been working on an outreach for the end. We are planning on having a skate comp. tomorrow at Stone church. It should be amazing. We are using the Stone church parking lot and bringing in ramps and all the rest of that crazy like skater stuff.

Last night the LDP'S ( Leadership Development Program - people), and Erin and I went how to a movie. It was really nice to get away from the school for a night as well as see some new faces.

Oh and tonight Erin, Hilary and I are dying are hair. This is my night with Erin before she heads out to Victoria, B.C. We chowed now on such yummy nachos earier in the night!

This has been a great week with great people. I am really pumped for a new year at Taylor College. I am excited to learn and I am excited for my placement. This will be good.

DEAR ERIN:

Well Erin I cannot believe your heading to B.C
I cannot believe the friendship I have been able to develop with you over this past year. I am so thankful we got to know each other the way we do today. You are a radical woman of God. Sometimes I wonder if your even human. I love you so much. So are so wacky and freaking funny. I could go on and on about you but I that would take too long, plus I really don't know how interesting this is for anyone else who may be reading this. Erin I pray that God will provide for you in every area possible. May He show you Himself in whole new way. May you fully experience God and His powerful healing. I pray that you may walk in boldness and couragousness. May you walk like a lion, in boldness and ready to leap into faith. I have learned so much from you Erin. You have taught me so much in my own walk with God. Thank you so much. I look up to you as a sister. Thank you for being such a great best friend. I love you.

P.s sorry for being so sappy and cheesey

Well that is all tonight. Peace out everyone.

~Eternity~

2006-09-02T23:08:00.000-04:00

Something that God has hit me hard with lately is His eternity. There are simpley no words, pictures or actions that can show or describe eternity. As humans we will never be able to fully comperhend eternity.

Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

I guess this has been on my mind a lot lately. Working at camp and having little 8 year olds saying " but Jessie, there has to be a begining and an end. It doesn't make sense!"
That is it! It simply does not make sense to us. The way humans think is that everything has a beginging and an end. Everything is born and everything dies. Everything ages and grows old. It's amazing what you can beging really ponder about when you have little 8 year olds asking you these questions. I have learned so much from my campers it's crazy. God used them to teach me about simple things that we often forget about.

I love the thought of knowing that God has been hear the whole time. Think about it.....
The WHOLE time. I really I don't think many of us stop to think about it enough. I mean truly thinking about God's eternity. I certiantlly don't think we give God all the credit He deserves.

The sky we look at night is the same sky God created when he first created the earth. Wow! That thought seriously brings chills up my spin. God is so big and creative. Think about it...... Who would come up with trees. Like look how they are shaped. Seriously it's crazy. Or a zebra! Now we are talking hahah the name alone is cool and then the colors. Wow God is not a boring God. Let's take a look at a giraffe. HUGE long neck and spots. Wow. Everything God created is beautiful. I really don't have a lot to share but I guess I wanted to more write down my thoughts. I guess I have a much more of a apperication of God's creation and His eternity. I love stopping and thinking about it. ETERINTY

~Hard Good Byes and Welcoming Hellos~

2006-08-28T10:01:00.000-04:00

Left : That would be my brother Alastair and I being silly at camp. I am going to miss you Al. I love you so much.

Well Camp is all over now. I have week and a bit before I head to Saint John for school. I'm heading into my second year but because myself and Erin are the only 2 second year students we are going to be doing our 3rd year work in our second year. Then 3rd year we will do our second year work. I know it sounds crazy and confusing. I have one week to unpack all my stuff from camp and then repack for a year in Saint John.

I am looking forward to this upcoming year. I know God has many things in store for me. So all you people who were staff or campers at Camp Medley I just see you in Saint John since most of Camp Medley is from Saint John.

Erin will be leaving to Victoria , B.C. I'm excited for her. She is going to have an amazing time. I going to miss her like crazy though.

Left: My best friend Erin lifeguarding at Camp! I am going to miss when you leave. I know your going to have a wicked time.

Left: Katie and I, at Grace Harvest Home group. I love you all so much. You are a real family to me when I live in Saint John.

Well I'm out for now I'll see everyone soon when I come to Saint John. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone again. God Bless you all.

~Camp Medley~

2006-08-12T17:09:00.000-04:00

Camp has been amazing. God has been showing me Himself through so many differnt things. Such as the campers, the staff, life style of camp, the love that comes from everyone at around me. It's radical. I wish I could tell you more but I want you to know that God has been doing amazing things at camp and He is not near done.

Thank you Father for all the children you have brought to camp. Thank you for placing them so perfectly with the counsellors they should be with. You are amazing.

Here are some photos of the summer.

This is Abby and myself . All girls week.( she was an amazing camper.)
These are my JT2 girls awesome group of girls. Love ya girls!
D-Hall Staff JT3! Awesome job!
JT3 .Steph and I at camp fire!
Boys and girls 1. Sara and I

God is good.

~A Little Update~

2006-07-09T08:22:00.000-04:00

Just incase your wondering I have not disappeared. I have been really busy working at Camp Medley this summer. I am really enjoying it there. God is doing amazing things. I am so excited for this week. It's junior teen. Those are kids ages 12-15. It's exciting. I am working the dinning hall with my bother and 2 other guys and then the assistant cook Karen and the cook Holly. This week the camp is full. There is 150 campers. Please pray that throughout the summer we get lots of campers coming.

Also next weekend I am going to the church army conference. hahah and guess what! I......yes I finally got a uniform. When I was wearing in the store and looking at myself in the mirror I really scared myself. Only because I could see what was ahead of me for my future. haha Over all the uniform is amazing and I am really happy with it.

I do have a pray request. For the past 3 days I have trouble talking. My throat does not hurt, but my voice is fading away and I really need it at camp and with what I am doing. I really want to share the good news of Jesus Christ to everyone around me. Please pray for healing in my voice. Thank you so much. May God Bless you all.
I hope you are all having an amazing summer.

~Rend Your Heart~

2006-06-22T15:16:00.000-04:00

Well last night as I was lying in my bed I was reading my Bible. I flipped open to Joel and God really spoke using these verses:

Joel 2:12-13

Even now," declares the LORD,
"return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning."

Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.

There are two things God is asking of us to do here in these verses.

1. Return to Him with all your heart
2. Rend your heart and not your garments

Return to me with all your heat.

When I read those words they hit hard. Over this past year God has over and over again shown me how much He cares for me and loves me unconditionally. He telling us that He wants us and ALL of us. Not just 10% or 40%or70% God want 100% and MORE of us!! Think of it this way your earthly father or your mother loves you and they enjoy having conversation with you. As we mature and grow older we begin to see things as they do. It's the same way with God. He enjoys time with us. He enjoys hearing our voice. He loves communicating with us. As we pursue Him he wants to take us to a deeper level. We must continually give him all our heart.

We must to return to our FIRST LOVE.

Revelation 2:4-5 ( The Message)

"But you walked away from your first love—why? What's going on with you, anyway? Do you have any idea how far you've fallen? A Lucifer fall!
"Turn back! Recover your dear early love. No time to waste, for I'm well on my way to removing your light from the golden circle.

God's wants to be the first in all our lives. He wants us to be so focused on Him and completely consumed in his Holy Spirit. He wants intimacy with each and every one of us. The question is....do you want have intimacy with Him? Do you want to return to Him with all your heart? Do you want to give 100% and more to Him?
He is chasing after us everyday.... some more obvious then others. I know everyday I want a deeper relationship with God and a higher level of intimacy. Some days it is a real challenge to sit down and read my Bible or Praise God through God. I contend though because I what Jesus did for me and I choose to love God with ALL my heart. No it's never easy....but it is rewarding.

Rend Your Heart

I really began to think about what it means really to rend your heart. Rending our hearts means an act of opening up our hearts. The word rend, means to tear open or apart. So we already know God doesn't only want us to open our hearts but He wants us to REND them...to tear them open.

I think many of us have over used the word open. God wants us to be real with one another and to be open. He wants us to open our hearts to each other but most importantly He wants us to open our heart to Him. Rend our hearts to Him.

Psalm 51:17

The sacrifices of God are
a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.

God wants us to not only be open but be willing to lay everything down before Him. He wants us to Rend out hearts. In the OT people would tear the clothes as an outward sign to anguish, sorrow, or happiness.

Genesis 37:28-29
So when the Midianite merchants came by, his brothers pulled Joseph up out of the cistern and sold him for twenty shekels of silver to the Ishmaelites, who took him to Egypt.
When Reuben returned to the cistern and saw that Joseph was not there, he tore his clothes.

Are we willing to humble ourselves?

Are we going to continue to hind behind a mask and say "I am being real, I am open"?

Are we willing rend our hearts to God?

Are we willing to let God in our hearts and let him strip away everything that is unpleasing to him?

Are we willing?

Are we willing we return to him with our WHOLE heart?

Are we willing to make in the center of our lives?

Are we willing?

Are you willing?

~Always Low Prices!~

2006-06-14T19:19:00.000-04:00

Alrighty I am only writing this because I am excited! I went out shopping tonight with Erin. I seriously have a whole new love and appreciation for wal-mart. I love that place. EVERYTHING is ALWAYS cheap or on sale! hahaha Oh goodness I can't believe I am writing all this down.

Now I know some of you like do you summer shopping.... well I say go do it ALL at wal- mart. You'll find everything you want there. Remember kids Wal- Mart always low prices....ALWAYS!

Don't forget the wonderful wal-mart staff. They are always on the ball with things. THey are all so very nice and kind to you. They are welcoming and they make you want to come back. Oh no they may not be a good thing for me haha. God Bless Wal-Mart and the workers.

Anyway I had a great day shopping with my bestest pal Erin friend. Everyone go to wal-mart!....EVERYONE!:

~Be Submersed into Prayer~

2006-06-13T16:41:00.000-04:00

Something God has been really hitting me with lately is many scripture verse about prayer. I am so drawn to these verses, about people praying all night or gathering together to pray for a certain issue. People immersed in prayer. Interceding for other people. I know i have the gift of intercession and I love getting together to pray. I see that as a very important thing for the church, to come together and pray and intercede for others as well as minister to one another.

Immersed - To cover completely in a liquid; submerge, to baptize by submerging in water.

The sad thing is that many people do not know what prayer really is. Pray is not just something you do when you go to bed at night and give God your grocery list. Ex. God thank you for Bob, Betty, Tom, and the list can go on. Prayer is something from the heart. It's what you’re feeling and you share those deep feelings with God. Prayer is a way of communication with God. Think about it.... when you pray your praying to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. That amazes me; that we have that opportunity to pray to our King whenever we want. God waits patiently only to hear our voice go out to Him. He wants us to talk to him and as we wait he will respond to our prayers.

Prayer - is converse with God; the intercourse of the soul with God, not in contemplation or meditation, but in direct address to him.

Don't you see? God wants intimacy with us! In order for us to have intimacy with God we have to be able to give everything over to God, in doing that, we have prayer to God. We must stop limiting God to our satisfaction. He is much bigger and much more powerful then what we can ever comprehend. Sometimes we limit God saying “this problem is to big for God." or " there is no way God can heal me". Right there that would be someone putting limitations on God. I thinking that God doesn't believe in ceilings in heaven because if your in a room with a ceiling you can only jump so far before you hit that ceiling but you this God there is no ceiling... there is no limit. He wants more of us!

Our God is a God of healing, power, and authority. He is a God of LOVE! We must limiting God!!! Take that leap of faith and say I KNOW GOD I WILL do this!

Some verses that really spoke to me....

Acts 12

So Peter was kept in prison, but the church was earnestly praying to God for him.

When this had dawned on him, he went to the house of Mary the mother of John, also called Mark, where many people had gathered and were praying. Peter knocked at the outer entrance, and a servant girl named Rhoda came to answer the door. When she recognized Peter's voice, she was so overjoyed she ran back without opening it and exclaimed, "Peter is at the door!"

These takes place when King Herod arrested Peter and put him prison.

Acts 6:3-4

Brothers, choose seven men from among you who are known to be full of the Spirit and wisdom. We will turn this responsibility over to them and will give our attention to prayer and the ministry of the word."

Now remember we are the light of the world.

Matthew 5:14-15

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.

We must keep our lamps burning and bringing oil to them always.

Exodus 27:20

"Command the Israelites to bring you clear oil of pressed olives for the light so that the lamps may be kept burning.

Exodus 30:8

He must burn incense again when he lights the lamps at twilight so incense will burn regularly before the LORD for the generations to come.

Daily incense coming from the lamp stand. The incense is our prayers. Oil only comes from tending the lamp daily.

Are you a fragrance unto the Lord?

Are you tending your lamp stand?

Pray, spend TIME in the presence of God, and in time you will birth a new and higher level of intimacy with God because your spending TIME with Him. Him...God...Your first love.

As soon as we stop limiting God and BELIEVE that God can use us then we can do the works of healing, prophecy, casting out of demons, words of knowledge, words of wisdom etc. Remember faith without deeds is dead.

Psalm 2:8

Ask of me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession.

Colossians 4:2

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.

Can we say that we do that enough or at all? I know that we will come to together on certain occasions to intercede together but remember Paul says pray continually. We must be submersed in prayer.

Last night as I was having my time with God before I went to bed I was praying to God. I remember I had this vision of this huge fountain with water rushing out from the top and the whole thing was FULL of water. The water was still and glistened in the light. I saw myself go over to the fountain and step right into it. Then I saw God's hand on my head. As His hand was on my head I went all the way in to the water. The word I got as I was in the water was be submersed into prayer. So it's like submersing into water. He wants us to be ALL the way in not just at ankle level. He wants us to take that leap of faith.

What do you think?

What is God saying to you?

Are you limiting God?

Are you an incense to Him?

Do you want intimacy with the King?

Well I am going to end there. That is something that has been burning on my heart for a while but I needed time to make sense of it. I hope everything in this blog is readable and makes sense to you. May God Bless you.

~Adventures With Little Blue Bell~

2006-06-07T22:52:00.000-04:00

Well tonight Jen Mac, Becca Tremblay and I headed to Camp Medley for a visit. I really missed Erin, so I wanted to see her. While we were there we got to see Eric and Brennan as well. Eric and Erin are on Spring maintance for Camp. Becca brought alone her new little puppy with her. The puppy's name is Blue Bell but they just call her Blue for short. It was the cutest thing ever. She actually slept on me most of the night while Jen, Erin and I were visiting and Becca and boys were out in the boat. Here are some pictures of Blue.

See she's only little.

Jen Mac and I with little Blue Bell

Blue and I. I thought it was cute that they had a blue coller for her with a little golden bell on it. hahah

On the way home we stopped at the shell that is just down the road from Camp Medley. We were hungry. The girls got chips and candy and I got my regular coffee and for fun I decided to try something new.... that I now regret! hahah I saw these chips in the store and laughed at them because they looked so weird but I said "hey I won't know what they really taste like till I try them right?"... so I got them. I was NOT impressed!!! :

They are called Veggie Chips.

All I have to say is YUCK YUCK YUCK.YUCK.BARF.COM!!!!!!

See what they look like.... that is what they taste like!! SICK!

Hmmm I should I go back shell and get my money back! Do you think I could really do that?

hah kidding.

Well that is all for now!

Peace out my friend and God Bless you all! :)

P.S NEVER buy veggie chips!

~Sing to the KING~

2006-05-30T13:48:00.000-04:00

Last night I had a dream.
I remember seeing big red barn doors with white siding. All of a sudden they flung open and I saw myself worshipping. The barn was full of people. We were singing the song Sing to the King. I felt that everyone there was declaring who they were in Christ together as one body. I also felt that as we were singing that song we were taking back ground that the enemy had stolen.

Later on in the dream I remember preaching about Stephen from the book of Acts. I was using Acts 6: 15 where Stephen's face looked like an angel.
All who were sitting in the Sanhedrin looked intently at Stephen, and they saw that his face was like the face of an angel.

I remember as I was preaching I began to talk about open heavens. I read from Acts 7: 54-56 where Stephen saw the glory of the Lord and the heavens opened up.
When they heard this, they were furious and gnashed their teeth at him. But Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God. "Look," he said, "I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God."

Each time I used scripture in my dream I remember seeing my Bible in my hands in front of me.

These are the words to the song Sing to the King

Sing to the King

Sing to the King Who is coming to reign
Glory to Jesus, the Lamb that was slain
Life and salvation His empire shall bring
And joy to the nations when Jesus is King

Come, let us sing a song
A song declaring that we belong to Jesus
He is all we need
Lift up a heart of praise
Sing now with voices raised to Jesus
Sing to the King

For His returning we watch and we pray
We will be ready the dawn of that day
We'll join in singing with all the redeemed
'Cause Satan is vanquished and my Jesus is King'

I am not entirely sure of what this dreams might mean but if God shows you something through this please let know. Thank you.

~Weekend Adventures~

2006-05-29T14:51:00.000-04:00

The weekend was so beautiful. The weather was amazing. Saturday my brother Alastair drove down to Saint John. He went to visit Dee’s and I went to visit Christian in Hampton. While I was there I had the chance I visit with his parents and his younger brother Byrann.

Christian and I took a good hike to the bank. When I say hike...I mean it was a hike. Ha Ha. When we got back our tiredness and rubber legs did not stop us from jumping on the trampoline.

It wasn't long till our legs got tired and we collapsed.

For supper Venus made some amazing steaks on the BBQ. Haha It was my 3rd steak of the WEEK. I loved it. After supper we all went to the store to rent a movie to watch together. We got Last Holiday, starring Queen Latifah and LL cool J. It was a good movie. I liked it.

Below is a picture of Byrann climbing a tree in the back yard.

Sunday morning we went to church. All the Gowan’s helped lead worship. Christian on the drums, Will on the bass, Byrann on the tambourine and Venus doing media shout. It was nice going to St. Paul's again. It was like being home. For those of you who do not know I use to live in Hampton. That is how I know Christian and his family so well. I lived in Hampton for 3 years then moved to Fredericton. My dad was the Pastor at the Anglican Church there. I miss that place a lot, even more when I am there. There is such a sense of family in that church. I love kids running everywhere, all familiar faces and all the new faces I have yet to meet. It felt like home.

I arrived back home (Fredericton) around 5:00pm Sunday. We had a special dinner for my parents because it was there 29th WEDDING anniversary. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD! I cherish how much my parents love each other to pieces and that they center their relationship on God. It's amazing I love them so much.

Thank you mom and dad for being such amazing parents I love you. Thank you for loving each other with unconditionally. You have many more years ahead of you and may God bless every one of them, may He continue to show you new things every day. Be blessed this day and evermore.

Well that is my weekend adventures in a nut shell. Peace out.

~Romanced by The King of KINGS~

2006-05-23T19:00:00.000-04:00

Alright so I know it has been a while since I posted anything.... I need to just take a break from blogging and computer life. Hah

What I want to share with you is something God has been really been sharing with me.

Being Romanced by the King of Kings

Ruth 3:1-13

One day Naomi her mother-in-law said to her, "My daughter, should I not try to find a home for you, where you will be well provided for? Is not Boaz, with whose servant girls you have been, a kinsman of ours? Tonight he will be winnowing barley on the threshing floor. Wash and perfume yourself, and put on your best clothes. Then go down to the threshing floor, but don't let him know you are there until he has finished eating and drinking. When he lies down, note the place where he is lying. Then go and uncover his feet and lie down. He will tell you what to do."
"I will do whatever you say," Ruth answered. So she went down to the threshing floor and did everything her mother-in-law told her to do.

When Boaz had finished eating and drinking and was in good spirits, he went over to lie down at the far end of the grain pile. Ruth approached quietly, uncovered his feet and lay down. In the middle of the night something startled the man, and he turned and discovered a woman lying at his feet.

"Who are you?" he asked.
"I am your servant Ruth," she said.
"Spread the corner of your garment over me, since you are a kinsman-redeemer."

"The LORD bless you, my daughter," he replied. "This kindness is greater than that which you showed earlier: You have not run after the younger men, whether rich or poor.And now, my daughter, don't be afraid. I will do for you all you ask. All my fellow townsmen know that you are a woman of noble character. Although it is true that I am near of kin, there is a kinsman-redeemer nearer than I. Stay here for the night, and in the morning if he wants to redeem, good; let him redeem. But if he is not willing, as surely as the LORD lives I will do it. Lie here until morning."

Yes this is a story about Ruth and Boaz. It tells about how Ruth approached him for a request in marriage. I think this story very beautiful. How the two came together. If you read on in from verse 13 you see in Chapter 4 Boaz and Ruth get married. He announces to the elders and all the people that he has made the commitment of having Ruth as his wife. I see this as something so beautiful. It's interesting to see how everything worked and watching God's desire for their relationship. Through it all the elders and people blessed them.

I look at this story and see a foreshadowing of God's Romance with us.

Ruth washes herself and perfumes herself for Boaz. This is something we constantly should be doing in order to have an intimate and romantic relationship with God. Ask God to purify us and wash us clean. Our worship is a sweet smell and fragrance with Him. It's perfume. Perfume is something known to be expensive. Something costly.
Ephesians 5:1-2

Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Later on in verse 9 "Spread the corner of your garment over me, since you are a kinsman-redeemer." This is a request for marriage. Ruth confronts Boaz in a request for marriage. If you look back in chapter 2 :12 May the LORD repay you for what you have done. May you be richly rewarded by the LORD, the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to take refuge." Now we see on the threshing floor Ruth asks Boaz to spread the "wings" ( the corners ) of his garment over her. Boaz begins to be reminded that he must serve as the Lord's protective wings over Ruth.

Now going back looking verse 9. This verse is repeated in Ezekiel 16:8

" 'Later I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign LORD, and you became mine.

This is a God's covenant to Jerusalem. I believe this is also for us today. Read that verse over again and look at it as if God is speaking to you. Isn't is amazing to think about how much God wants to have a deeper relationship with us everyday?

God is waiting for us to pursue Him more and more everyday. He is also waiting for those who have never pursued him before in their life. He wants intimacy with us. He wants to cover our nakedness. He wants to make an oath with us and enter into a covenant with us.

Are you willing to let God wash you clean and have your worship be a sweet perfume to God?

Are willing to lay everything down only to have a close, intimate relationship with the King of Kings?

Do you want to be romanced by the King of Kings?

I found this to be a beautiful story of two people that came into union under God's will. God wants us to come into union with Him. He wants us to love as he loves us. He wants us to have unconditional love pour out of us. Wow. Just take a second think about how big God's love is and that how big God wants us to love. It's eternal. Never ending love. He wants romance us with his love. He wants to have intimacy with us. He wants you to know the Father's heart. It's so important for people to understand this. It's something it's like yeah God loves and that it. We talk a lot about love and romance like it's nothing. It's become to us a broken record because love is something the whole world talks about and hears about but know nothing about it. This is why we must change that. We are called to be imitators of God's love. We must pour out unconditional love from within us. Jesus must always be our first love! Take that step and walk as Jesus walked! Live in intimacy with him, romance, and deep, deep relationship becoming stronger everyday.

Do you want a deep relationship with the King?

Do you want intimacy with the King?

Do you want to be romanced by the King of Kings?

~My Mother's Hands - Happy Mother's Day~

2006-05-13T23:40:00.000-04:00

Well it's mother's day so I thought I would write a poem for my mom. To all those other moms I wish you a happy mothers day as well. May God continue to bless you this day.

My Mother’s Hands…

My mother’s hands held me close from the time I was born
My mother’s hands fed me in my high chair.
My mother’s hands washed my clothes.
My mother’s hands cleaned up my messes.
My mother’s hands would be up all night with me, waiting for me to fall asleep
My mother’s hands had rules that you would not want to break

My mother’s hands helped with my school work
My mother’s hand would tuck me into bed every night
My mother’s hands would wash and brush my hair.
My mother’s hand would help me brush my teeth
My mother’s hand would wake up in the middle of the night because I was scared.
My mother’s hands would hold me tight and sleep with me until I was alright.
My mother’s hands would play Barbie’s and Lego with me
My mother’s hands would drive me from place to place
My mother’s hands would teach me how to ride a bike
My mother’s hands would play in the sand box with me
My mother’s hands would take me to the beach

My mother’s hands held me when I was crying
My mother’s hands would pick up the phone to hear my voice saying that I was homesick.
My mother’s hands make the best home cooked meals ever.
My mother’s hands are filled with love and affection for her family.
My mother’s hands are full of wisdom and experience.
My mother’s hands I love truly.
My mother’s hands are lifted high and up to worship our Heavenly Father
My mother’s hands serve God
My mother’s hands pour out purity
My mother’s hands…

Mom I love you and I thank you for everything that you have done for me. You are an amazing mother, and women of God. You are a great friend. Thank you for all you have taught me and shown me. May God continue to bless you, and show you more everyday. May God go deeper and deeper within you. I pray that you will know God more intimately everyday. I love you so much mom.

~PURITY~

2006-05-11T13:54:00.000-04:00

Alright so some of you might have read Marie-Hélène 's last post on Jepthah's daughter: Intense purity. If you haven't read it, then you should before you continue to read this blog. When I first read that passage from her blog, I never knew what the references to the Bible were. Today I was reading my Bible. I was reading from Judges. I happened to be reading this same story that I read yesterday in Marie-Hélène's blog. I was so blown away by the fact that even though I had no idea where it was in the Bible , God showed me it again when I opened up my Bible. What amazes me it the purity in this young girl. It's crazy!

Judges 11:29-39

Then the Spirit of the LORD came upon Jephthah. He crossed Gilead and Manasseh, passed through Mizpah of Gilead, and from there he advanced against the Ammonites. And Jephthah made a vow to the LORD : "If you give the Ammonites into my hands, whatever comes out of the door of my house to meet me when I return in triumph from the Ammonites will be the LORD's, and I will sacrifice it as a burnt offering."

Then Jephthah went over to fight the Ammonites, and the LORD gave them into his hands. He devastated twenty towns from Aroer to the vicinity of Minnith, as far as Abel Keramim. Thus Israel subdued Ammon.

When Jephthah returned to his home in Mizpah, who should come out to meet him but his daughter, dancing to the sound of tambourines! She was an only child. Except for her he had neither son nor daughter. When he saw her, he tore his clothes and cried, "Oh! My daughter! You have made me miserable and wretched, because I have made a vow to the LORD that I cannot break."

"My father," she replied, "you have given your word to the LORD. Do to me just as you promised, now that the LORD has avenged you of your enemies, the Ammonites. But grant me this one request," she said. "Give me two months to roam the hills and weep with my friends, because I will never marry."

"You may go," he said. And he let her go for two months. She and the girls went into the hills and wept because she would never marry. After the two months, she returned to her father and he did to her as he had vowed. And she was a virgin.

I think this has a lot to say about us today. This girl was willing to die a virgin. She did not complain she said “do to be just as you promised the Lord. WOW! Can you imagine yourself in that place? She mourned for 2 months because she knew there was no way she was ever going to be able to have children or ever to be married. She submitted to the promise her father made to the Lord. She became a pure sacrifice to God. I know in todays culture it's hard to walk that line of purity. The world has different view of what purity is then to what we (Christians) know what purity is. If you were this girl what would you have done? I know it is hard to think about. I believe that God is only going to continue to raise that bar of purity in all of us. What is purity mean to you? What purity means to you may not mean the same thing to me. What purity means to me may not be the same to you. Doesn't mean one is wrong or right it's that level of purity God has spoken into you or me. It also doesn't me no is better than the other. I want to live my life pure before God. I want him to be my First Love.

Ephesians 5:1-3

Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people

I'll share with some personal stuff with you now.....

Some of you might know this but... Christian and I have made a commitment to pursue a relationship together. With that we have had to sit down and talk about purity. We spent a while praying about it and asking God where is the line in this relationship. We both left kissing was something we did not want in our relationship. I know some of you may be like what are they thinking? Or you might not compelelty understand WHY we chose to do this. That is ok. Our reasoning to this is because we want our relationship to be pleasing to God. We want him to be the center and HIM to consume us from every end and angle. Again this is what God spoke into my relationship with Christian. This might be different for you.

a book that I would really recommend to you is not even a hint..guarding your hearts

against lust. by Joshua Harris

~Imiators of Christ our King!~

2006-05-09T13:32:00.000-04:00

“My Princess…You are my precious daughter,

‘And I will be your Father, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty’ 2 Cor. 6:18.

You are a daughter of the King, and not just any king. You are My daughter, and I am the God of all heaven and earth. I’m delighted with you! You are the apple of My eye. You’re Daddy’s girl. Your earthly father may love and adore you, but his love is not perfect, no matter how great – or small – it is. Only My love is perfect…because I am Love. I formed your body. I fashioned your mind and soul. I know your personality, and I understand your needs and desires. I see your heartaches and disappointments, and I love you passionately and patiently. My child, I bought you with a price so that we could have an intimate relationship together for all eternity. Soon we will see each other face-to-face – Father and daughter – and you will experience the wonderful place I have prepared for you in paradise. Until then, fix your eyes on heaven, and walk closely with Me. You will know that – although I am God – My arms are not too big to hold you, My beloved daughter.

Love,
Your King and your Daddy in heaven"

Note: This is also for all males as well. You are God's sons and princes.

How awesome is it to know that God already has everything planed out for us. I enjoy listening to His call and His voice. I love feeling His touch. I love knowing that I am NEVER alone. I am safe in the arms of my Father. When the worlds rejects me God is still there holding me and taking good care of me. All I want to do is to disern God's will for my life. I want to walk in obedience. As hard as that is, it's rewarding at the end. For example....I didn't exactly want to submit to God when He was telling He wanted me back at Taylor College. I tried hard to get out of it. God never stopped giving me dreams, visions, and giving me scripture. Finally I was like alright God,Your plan is always better then mine. As much as this doesn't excite me right now I am going to obey you. So I applied and I got it. Through this whole process God has really changed my heart and I am happy I am going back. I am happy that I submitted to God's will and not my own.

I want to be a glory carrier. I want to carry only the glory of God on me. WHOA WOW MY heart is pounding so fast right now because I am so excited. I am so in love with GOD!! OH my goodness! Father God I love you so much!

Ephesians 5:8-14

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light(for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said:

"Wake up, O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you."

C'MON we ARE light let's LIVE as CHILDERN of LIGHT. WE ARE THE LIGHT OF WOLRD!!!!

Let the glory of God consume your everything. I pray you have carry God's glory where ever you go. God has given us power and authority to do those things he did on earth.

Luke 9:1-2

When Jesus had called the Twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick.

This isn't stuff that could only happen back in the days of the Bible this is stuff we can do TODAY!!! Because God has given us that power and authority. We have to believe, we have to have faith that God has given this gift to us. This is so important to understand tha twhat Jesus did on earth we can NOW today! To bring glory to God and to edify the Kingdom of God!

C'mon it's time that we all get yup and be IMIATORS of CHRIST!!

~For Love is Strong as Death~

2006-05-08T21:26:00.000-04:00

Song of Solomon 8:6-7

Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.

Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot wash it away.
If one were to give
all the wealth of his house for love,
it would be utterly scorned.

Right now all that is on my mind is HOW much I truly love God and HOW much He loves me. I want these two verses to represent intimacy between Jesus and myself. I want to him to shape me and mold me in to the women he wants me to be. I am a lover a pursuer of Jesus Christ. I want to be able to love as He loves. I want my life to be so consumed by God that whoever meets me for the first time will meet God for the first time. GOD I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!! I want to you seek your face God! I want to be taken to a secret place a place to where I can be with you and you can be with me. Jesus I ask you to go deeper within me. Change my heart. Show me what I have to do. Thank you, Jesus.

I am reminded of a song... one of my favorite Songs.

This is the chorus.

I want to be small
I want to be just like a child
I want to be quite in your arms
I want to be smal
I want to be just like a child
I want to be quite in your arms.

"What is God's greatest desire for you ? God sees you as a precious treasure, and He longs to have a close relationship with you. More than anything He wants you to have an intimate love relationship and friendship with Him. God wants you to spend time with Him and intimately communicate with Him, to enjoy fellowship with Him, to trust and follow Him, and to give your life meaning and purpose. "

"Do you desire a deeper and closer relationship and friendship with God? Is your desire to know Him and to please Him growing? Do you know that hearing God's voice is by far the most important part of your prayer & fellowship time with God ? God needs to touch our hearts so that Jesus is our 1st Love, and so that we will faithfully and passionately seek Him and follow Him, however and wherever He may lead us. "

That is it... I only want to know God more and more everyday. Everyday is a NEW day. Remember God doesn’t look at what we did wrong yesterday He looks at us loving Him TODAY and HIMSELF LOVING US FOREVER! Pursue the one that is chasing YOU!! JESUS!!!

I love you Jesus.

~Let the Message ring out of us~

2006-05-04T17:51:00.000-04:00

1 Thessalonians 1:7-10

And so you became a model to all the believers in Macedonia and Achaia. The Lord's message rang out from you not only in Macedonia and Achaia—your faith in God has become known everywhere. Therefore we do not need to say anything about it, for they themselves report what kind of reception you gave us. They tell how you turned to God from idols to serve the living and true God, and to wait for his Son from heaven, whom he raised from the dead—Jesus, who rescues us from the coming wrath.

When I read this verse what really caught my eye was the word rang. This is how we ought to be that we are so firmly planted that the message just rings out of us. The word rang itself means to anncounce or to proclaim. When we talked about the Gospel it brings beautiful sounds of ringing around you. The ringing sound of people talking about, “who is this Jesus?” and asking questions. That is beautiful sound. May we have the Lord's message ring out of us, that it would create chatter among the people. Through our faith may we become known everywhere, because of our life style that we choose to live for God. We choose to walk the narrow road. We choose to walk in the light, to be models to all believers and non-believers. We choose be imitators of Christ. We choose to be lovers to of the Most High.

Personally this is something I want for myself. For the message to ring out of me at all times. I want to be a bell that constantly rings. I do not want people to hear my words but I want them to hear that words God puts in my mouth and has me speak. I want to be a model to all believers and non-believers. I want to be know God in a whole new way every day. I want to be taken to a higher level of intimacy, a deeper understanding of who He is. I want to know Him face to face. I get excited every day to spend time with Him. I love my Lord Jesus Christ so much.

2 Thessalonians 3:1

Finally, brothers, pray for us that the message of the Lord may spread rapidly and be honored, just as it was with you.

Be a bell that constantly rings the Lord's message.
Let the message be rung!

Well that is a little something I thought I would share you with that was on my mind.

Be Blessed

~The Bonnie and Clide Show!~

2006-05-03T20:12:00.000-04:00

Last night was fun. Jen Mac and Erin came over to hang out. We got to catch up on what's been happening in Fredericton. Erin ended up staying the night. We always end up having a blast when we hang out. It's great.

I would like to interrupt this program to introduce.........

The Bonnie and Clyde Show!!!

Clyde and Bonnie 's photo shoot
Bonnie's photo shoot alone
Clyde's photo shoot alone

Watch these two nuts just appear out of no where. They could be camping in your backyard. You never know, the next person you talk to COULD very well be Bonnie or Clyde. It could be like BAM Bonnie and Clyde!

A few words from Bonnie and Clyde....

Clyde says: I have really enjoyed the spot light. I know my fans love me. It has been real great, real great.

Bonnie says: This life is greeat. I'm telling ya it's the bomb. We love eating fish sticks and Oreos every night.

Clyde says: Ma said it was time we move on out. So Bonnie and I bought ourselves a nice trailer and put in the backyard of Ma's house. It's real nice there. I love the great outdoors of my Ma's house. The house we grew up in

Bonnie says: It's great!

Bonnie says: I couldn't ask for anything better. It's whole different life, whole different way of living. It's new experience. Boy there is nothing like living in Ma's backyard. I'm telling ya it's great!

Thank you Bonnie, Thank you Clyde. That is the Bonnie and Clyde show everyone. Please stay tune and you'll see them soon near you. MAYBE JUST BESIDE YOU!!! Keep your eye pealed for BOONIE AND CLIDE they could be ANYWHERE!!!

Rock out my friends see ya!

~Unpacking...not so much! UGH!~

2006-04-30T21:54:00.000-04:00

Well... I had today planed out to unpack all my stuff that I brought home with me from school. I had so much stuff it filled my room and took over the kitchen.

My room before I even started unpacking. UGH! About an hour later I had tired and took a break. Then my mom came home from the air port so I talked with her for a little. Then my good ol' friends Jen Mac, Jen Whelly, Kurt and Carolyn came over to visit. It was really nice to chat and catch up with them. I hadn't seen them all year. My brother(Alastair) came in and chilled with us. He played Nintendo with Jen Whelly.Al gaming with Jen
Great friends. Jen Mac, Carolyn and Kurt. I love you guys very much.

So I guess I didn't really get all my unpacking done after all. Haha I still have a lot left to do. I know everything is on my bed right now. Maybe tonight I'll sleep in my sister's old room.

~A new generation of children~

2006-04-29T20:57:00.000-04:00

This something I found on my other blogging place called "myspace". When I looked at it I was so moved and wanted to share with you right away. I really recommend that you look at it.

http://livedigital.com/content/52110/u22331

This is a little 7 year old crying to God. May God move in us and create in each in every one of us a child like faith. May we be people who will do God's will and pursue EVERDAY! GOD CHANGE our HEARTS. Remove the junk from us and go deep within us. God we want more of You!

2 Chronicles 7:14

if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.

Malachi 4:5-6

"See, I will send you the prophet Elijah before that great and dreadful day of the LORD comes. 6 He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their children, and the hearts of the children to their fathers; or else I will come and strike the land with a curse."

John 12: 1-7
We must like the women who poured perfume on Jesus' feet. That was sacrifice. A YEAR’S WAGES. Are you willing to sacrifice your life to Him? Are you willing to lay everything down before? How far are you willing to go to show Him you love Him? Remember what He did for you... He DIED for YOU! This women humbled herself not just by pouring perfume on Jesus' feet but she untied her hair and wiped His feet with it. At that time it was women never untied their hair. This was an act of humility.

As we see in that video children actual young children crying out to God. God has created us to RADICAL people. I say if little 7 year olds are crying out then that is AMAZING!!! MAY GOD CONITUE TO CREATE A CHILD LIKE FAITH IN YOU AND IN ME!!!

~Church Army Graduation~

2006-04-28T23:08:00.000-04:00

Tonight was the graduation serivce for all the students leaving Taylor College. It was held at Forset Hill Baptist Church. Personnally I found the night a little sad. It was an amazing God given year to really reflect on. The whole night was amazing. Ken Neilson have a talk that brought many people in to tears including himself. I was touched by what he had to say.

On the left is Christian and I after the graduation

Below: All the students and staff from Taylor College

I am very excited that the year is over and now I have 2 months before camp that I can really prepare myself for. still don't know what is happening for me in the fall I know that I am accpeted into the second year and in the church army program but I don't know what I am doing yet. What I mean is that because Erin and I are the only 2 students coming back it might be hard teaching 2 students so in that case they would send us on a 12 month placement. Send Erin somewhere and send me somewhere.

Well that is all for tonight. It was a good night.

Go where the Lord is sending you.

~Church Army.com~

2006-04-27T16:46:00.000-04:00

Hahah well.. many of you don't know this but.. I applied for the 3 year program here at Taylor College. I didn't tell anyone because I wasn't really looking forward to it. haha. I applied because I knew it was the direction where God wanted me to go. I submitted to the Lord and obeyed what he was showing me and telling me to do.. as much as I didn't like it.

Well through all that I GOT ACCEPTED TODAY into the 3 year program! I just found out during lunch. Which means that in 2 years I can be commissioned as a Church Army officer. WOW! haha Can you imagine Captain Jessie Joyce. Well with everything that has happened today, I am very happy and excited to see what God has for me next. Praise Jesus! Thank you Lord you are so good to me! haha So now I'm Church army.com with Erin!

Erin and I are the only second years so it's going be the bomb.com year with just the two of us. hah.

Be Blessed

~I'M ALL DONE!~

2006-04-27T09:52:00.000-04:00

BOO YA!!! I"M ALL DONE! I just finished my last exam about 10 mins ago! Praise You Jesus! I'm so excited.

Tomorrow is the graduating service and then I head home right after that.
I'll be home again! In my bed! In Freddy! Where I can sleep and not be woken up by house mates. YES!

Don't worry SJ crew I'll be down again to visit. I'll miss you guys so much and I'll never forget the great times we had hanging out together. You are all awesome brothers and sisters to me. May God Bless you in all that you do this summer and evermore. I love you and I will miss you so so much. I'll do my best to keep in touch with you all.

Well I'm sleepy I think I am going to take a nap before lunch.

Philippians 4:4

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!

Peace out.

~Reflecting~

2006-04-26T12:46:00.000-04:00

Philippians 2:7-8

but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!

2 Corinthians 8:9

For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.

~3 Days till SUMMER!~

2006-04-26T12:14:00.000-04:00

Oh boy, oh boy!!! I am so excited. I just finished my fourth exam this afternoon. I have one left to do and then I am all done! Friday is the graduation for the college. It's a Forest Hills Baptist Church at 7:00pm. It's going to be a good time. This has been a very big adventure for me and I only look forward to the next thing God has for me. I feel so blessed and am very thankful for everything God has shown me and taught me thought this whole year. On top of me being happy today it's beautiful outside and the sun is shinning! Oh I love sunny days.

I can't wait to be home again. Be in my own bed, my own house, my own computer, my own SPACE. haha I'll be home Friday night hopefully if all works out. I'll be back in good on Freddy town soon with my Freddy friends. Oh I love you all and I'll see you soon. I have miss you so so much.

Today is such a wonderful God given day! Thank you Jesus for all you have done! You are amazing!

P.S 3 Days till SUMMER! BOO YA!

~Lab Rat, on a Tuesday Afternoon~

2006-04-18T15:15:00.000-04:00

I'm a lab rat on a Tuesday afternoon. I just handed in my last assignment for the year! YIPPIE! Right I am just chilling out in the lab for a bit before I head back to my place to fix myself something to eat.

Every Tuesday Erin and I ( my neighbor ) go to her placement home group. It's always a good time there. A great time to sing, pray, share the Word with everyone. Share what's burning on your heart. It's also a great time for ministry and fellowship. It's great place to be built up and encouraged in your daily walk.

Tomorrow I don't have any classes so I will be spending the majority of tomorrow studying and getting ready for my first exam on Friday. Thursday is our LAST DAY OF CLASSES! Then we head into a LONG week of exams. Friday of next week is our graduation ceremony for all the 3rd year students and 1 years who don't plan on coming back to Taylor.

Wow God has done some AMAZING things this past little while. I love it! I look back at this year and see what wondrous things God has done in my life. I am so happy. I wish to tell you more but not now because I believe may have to be for another blog on another blog.

~PHOTOS!~

2006-04-16T20:38:00.000-04:00

Hey everyone,

Boy I have so many photos from this past year that well I can't post them ALL on here so I posted as many as I could somewhere else. Check them out you just might find yourself in there! haha I love you all and Be Blessed. http://spaces.msn.com/jmargaretj/

~Some Random Pictures!~

2006-04-16T18:09:00.000-04:00

This would be the beautiful and wonderful Courtney Etheridge and I. This is during March break!
This would be Erin, myself and Courtney. Our wonderdul silly faces!
This is a picture of Andrea and I at the conference in Connecticut. Rend the Heavens! This is a picture of my youth group at Church of the Good Shepherd. I love those kids so much they are awesome. I am going to really miss them when I leave.
Hahaha this is a picture of Christian and I during Mission week in Fredericton. We were just being silly.
Oh I love these guys so much! This is Chad, Allan and Jordan. It was Chad's 20th Birthday so we had a surprise party for him. I will miss them a lot when I go. They are like brothers to me.

~Humility and denying yourself..do we do it?~

2006-04-10T21:40:00.001-04:00

Something that has be hitting me a lot lately is that is God teaching me more about real humility and denying myself. Yes we need to be willing to humble ourselves to serve Christ and show Him our true love for Him.

Are we willing to step out?

Are willing to say God I don't care what they say.. I want to show you I love you God?
Are you willing?

In the dictionary humble means: Marked by meekness or modesty in behavior, attitude, or spirit; not arrogant or prideful.

In this passage we read about Peter Denying Jesus. In his pride, Peter said he would never deny Jesus, yet he was humbled by doing so 3 times. We need to move in the Place of humility so that the circumstances around us do not cause us to be humbled which is painful.

I know for myself God has def. broken down some walls in me. I don't even know what the walls were but I do know they aren't there anymore.

We need to go back to the basics, of just loving. Learning what it means to love and how to love. We have nothing if we don't have love. We need simplicity.. the basics.
Are you willing to let everything go and lay everything down before God?

Maybe stepping out of the box for you, is ministering to people you do or don't know. Maybe just laying quietly in the corner and listening for God's voice. Maybe it's something bigger than that. Maybe it's something inside you that you need to work with God. Maybe it's another step into your future where God is guiding you. Maybe it's walking by faith. Ask him what it is that He wants you to do. He will show you.

Luke 9:23-27

Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels. I tell you the truth, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the kingdom of God."

Are we willing to take up our cross and follow Him DAILY!?

This past weekend God was really speaking me to about humility and denying myself. I have to be honest it wasn't my kind of mission. Sorry Reed. But I did get stretched and I was challenged a lot. I am now different person. I have come to a place where I can fully worship God no matter where I am and be hit by the Holy Spirit. I was in church Thursday night, at the worship service. God was really moving in me and showing me new things. I did get hit by the Holy Spirit. A new beginning was made that night.

Saturday night Erin and I went out for a walk down town Fredericton. We were praying and singing at the top of our lungs. It felt so freeing to just let everything you feel about God out. People were walking by us wondering what our problem was but we kept worshiping. Why? Because we were not going to stop showing our love. We were not going to deny our Christ. We felt like shouting to Him.

hahah It's funny what love can do to people. Many times you are willing to humiliate yourself to show the love you have for your husband or wife. Your willing to take whatever people say so you can show your love to your loved one. This should be the same for us and God.

What are you willing to show your love?

Your zeal and your passion for Him where you are?

What are you willing to do show Him how much you truly love Him?

Remember .....He died for you.

Saturday I was willing to sing and pray the loudest I could. I let myself go and let God to whatever He wanted with me. I wasn't going to let myself deny Him.
I now challenge to look at your life. Are you denying Christ or yourself?
Are you willing to do whatever it takes to show your love to God your creator?
Think about what His son Jesus Christ did for you on the cross.
What are you willing to do for Him?

Holy Encounters with BOOMERS!!!

2006-04-09T08:21:00.000-04:00

This past weekend my school came up to Fredericton for a mission. It was really good. You can see God really moving and opening hearts and minds. People were really receiving Him these past couple days.

One guy was walking the street was crying out to the "Holy one in the sky" He went to every church to see if they were open. The only open church was the one our team was at. He came in and just told us everything. This young guy was so full of joy and excitment. He only wanted more. We sat him down and prayed for a major download and blessing on him. It was awesome. His name was Joshua.

Last night after Erin and I dropped off Christian to the place he was staying we felt like taking a walk. We really wanted to find someone to talk to and share God with them. As we were walking we were praying. I was singing and Erin was praying. Then the clock hit 10:00 at city hall. Right there I really felt something stir inside of me. There was something strong and thick. I felt God saying something to me about that hour. I wasn't sure of what though. We kept walking and praying. We were asking God for sign and for him to show something of what he wants us to do tonight. haha Well As we walked further there was a nightclub called Boom. There was a sign in the window that read :
BOOM nightclub, Tonight Saturday, Open 8-2, Happy Hour 8-11, HEAVEN 10-2, blazing house tracks taking you to the next level" Erin and I were totally caught off guard. This place was claiming to be a blazing house tacks that will take people to the NEXT LEVEL!!! We remember that God really stirred something in us about 10:00. So right after the clock struck we saw this sign. It was CRAZY!

We both strongly felt that this was our sign. We didn't what to do though from there. So we sat down on a bench and prayed that God will the boom out to us. We really didn't feel good about going in. Not long after a guy (named George) that worked there came out with a clip board and circled around Erin and I. Erin said: Excuse me do you have one of those sheets in the window? We would like one. The guy was like yeah hold on. He came back asking why do you want it? Haha our KEY! So we told him who we are and that this sign in the window was very prophetic. This guy we were talking to had backslidden and grew up in the Baptist church. He also use to speak in tongues. IT WAS CRAZY!!! He seemed so interested in what we were saying but he had to go back his job.

Erin and I sat out there on the bench a little longer then another guy came and we began to talk him. His name was Adam. I began to tell him the gospel and encourage him. I just spoke words of love over this guy. It was really good. He was a different kind of guy I wouldn't know how to explain him. He was listening and I really believe that everything Erin and I said to him he thought about and is still thinking about. hahah He called me a fortune teller. hahah I laughed and said" no man I know nothing about you it's all God." He said I was dead on with everything I said to him. It was an amazing night. God really spoke to both Erin and I. We found out from this Adam guy that boom was a gay bar. We were really happy that God protected us and kept us from going in. Instead he brought the "boomers" out to us.

One thing I really noticed as people were walking into the nightclub was that they were all baby boomers (born right after WW2) or many of them were. It hit right then. These people were baby boomers. But God see them still as babies and wants them to BOOM in to the LIGHT! He wants them to be BABY BOOMERS FOR HIM!!! GOD BOOM THEM WITH YOUR HOLY SPIRIT!!! Thank you JESUS!

We headed home after sitting on a cold bench praying for an hour and a half.
Praising God for wonderful and Holy encounters!! Thank you Lord!!

~Who are you a fragrance for?~

2006-03-26T16:15:00.000-05:00

John 12:1-9

John 12: 3 Then Mary took about a pint of pure nard, an expensive perfume; she poured it on Jesus' feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.

Mary pours this perfume on Jesus' feet. She didn't care that it was year's wages of money or that people were watching her and remarking on what she was doing. She only wanted to give all that she had and all that she could to show her true love for Jesus.

Because this fragrance was expensive Mary's devotion and offering was expensive. This women literally poured herself out to Jesus. In those days in was custom to pour oil on the head and Mary is seen pouring more than oil but a beautiful fragrance of perfume on Jesus' feet. As she is pouring she wipes his feet with her hair. This shows a huge act of humility on Mary's part because it was not custom for a woman to let her hair loose and to attend the feet of someone that was suppose to be left to the servant.

A fragrant offering..

It was an act on humility..

Now put ourselves in Mary's spot. Your a young women. All you have to give was is perfume. You use it as an offering to Jesus. You bend down to rub the perfume all over Jesus. There are men all around you. Men... the disciples. They make remarks on what you are doing and they think your crazy. Nothing stops you though. This is your act of worship to Jesus Christ. This is your offering. You completely humbled yourself down and gave everything you had.

This perfume was a fragrant offering and the smell of it filled the whole house. Jesus constantly wants us. He wants us to give ourselves as an offering to Him.

Ephesians 5:1-2 Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

We are called to be a fragrant offering and sacrifice to Jesus. We are to carry the aroma of Jesus on us where ever we go. We have a choice ....we can smell beautiful in the nostrils of Jesus Christ... Or we can smell beautiful in the nostrils of the enemy. Which do you chose?

2 Corinthians 2:14-16
But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task?

Before I became fully committed to Jesus I was a sweet smell to the nostrils of the emery. I would lie to my mom about where I was going, I would get in fights with my brother, I would stay out all night at parties, I would drink and party almost every weekend for about a year. My marks in school went down because I didn't care anymore. I just wanted to please myself. I never thought about God. My attitude was horrible. I only ever thought about myself.

Now I want to do everything I can to be sweet smell to Jesus Christ. I want to be a fragrant offering just as He was for me.

How often are we a “Mary'?
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How often do we pour out everything we have and give if a as fragrant offering to Jesus?
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When will we get off out high latter's and humbles ourselves like Mary did?

God wants our everything. He wants us to offer of ourselves up as a sweet fragrance to Him. In doing that we ought to be obedient. But it's more than that. We ought to desire and love to be obedient to Him. No it's not always easy. I mean is it always easy to take instruction from a parent no, but we listen because we love them and want to obey. It goes the same for Jesus we love him deeply and because of the love we have for him we want to obey Him. Our King, our Father, Our Maker, Our Creator, Our everything.

Do you want to be the sweet smelling perfume in the jar that is poured out onto Jesus?
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Do want be a fragrant offering and sacrifice to Jesus just as he was for us?

Now remember the this fragrant offering of perfume was not cheap. It was very expensive. It was year's wages of money put in that perfume. It was a sacrifice for Mary to pour in on to Jesus' feet. She was sacrificing all the work and money she put into the perfume and used every last drop of it on His feet. The perfume was also a symbol of her complete devotion to Jesus. Her first love.

How are we a fragrant offering to Jesus?
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What are we willing to sacrifice in our lives to get closer to Jesus?
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We all have different stories of how we came to know Jesus. In that process we had make sacrifices many different to get closer to God and show that we really love him and want more of Him. Some of you may have had to sacrifice friends, or depending on where you were before you were saved maybe it was drinking or drugs, or maybe spending less time with your family and more time with God, maybe food, maybe the computer, or T.V.... or one thing we all say we don't have enough of is time.

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Are we willing to sacrifice our time to we will Jesus?
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These are just a few examples. You will see that as you take these steps of sacrifice for Jesus, He will show you other things He wants to clean you out and get rid of things that keep you from getting closer to Him, so you can have fresh relationship with him everyday. This does not stop the week that we are saved. It's a life time. It's a life time a sacrifices for Jesus.

Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

We no longer live. We let God take complete control over our lives. We live by faith and not by sight because we trust God. He loved us and gave his life for us, so we ought to do the same. We are too love Jesus as He loves us and put our lives into His hands. I challenge you now to let go of any thing that could be holding you back from being closer to God and letting Him have complete control over your life. Lets step down from where are be like Mary and pour everything we have on to Jesus as a sacrifice of our love for Him.

~What do you thirst for?....Living Water~

2006-03-23T14:41:00.000-05:00

Living Water

John 4:1-14

The human body depends on water to live it can't go more than 3 days without it.

Fact- How much water we drink is determined by our habits, not by thirst. When we feel thirsty, this usually is a sign that we have not been drinking a sufficient amount of water.

John 4:11 The well is deep. Where can you get this living water?

Where do you draw your water?
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Where do you find your energy?
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Is it from your family, friends,food, pets, school, sports, church events, or..
Is God your source of water?
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Is He your source of energy?
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The world today looks to other many different material things to "feel" refreshed. These things could be money, food, drinking, drugs etc. money, food, drinking, drugs

Before I really came to know the Lord I use try to fill my well with all kinds of different things. I wanted something that I could hold on to and "feel" filled up for a little while. I use to drink and go to parties for about a year when I was in high school. My flesh thought it was great but deep down inside I was hurt and empty. I was crying for something to fill me up. I was crying out for real love. I didn't know what love was. I didn't know what it meant to love. I searched for things to try to fill that up my well.

I hung with the wrong group of friends. They would drink and smoke up on the weekends. For a little while I went from boyfriend to boyfriend to boyfriend, because I was so hungry for something, I wasn't even aware I was hungry for God. I was looking for perfect love........... You only find perfect love in God.

You see I was trying fill my well with things of this world. I came to realize that the only thing that will ever fill my well is Jesus Christ pouring His living water into me. When I realized God was the only one who could fill me up, He was able to not only fill me but do some major work in me and hasn't stopped. I continually ask Him to go deeper in my well because the deeper you let him go the more living water He will pour in. Healing will be done, fear will be gone, offense will be gone, doubt will be gone. Because your letting God go deep and your letting him take control .

How deep do you want to go with God?
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How deep do you want to go with Him?

God will give you living water. All you have to do is ask. John 4:10
Jesus answered her, "If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water." ......pause......
you would have asked him and he would have given you living water.

The thing is the world does not realize that each one of these things: money, food, drinking, drugs is great at the moment but then there is a huge downfall. If it's money you could be broke. If it's food, you could become over stuffed, If it's drinking it'll lead to a hang over the next morning. If it's drugs you will get extermly sick. These are only just a few examples there are many more.

God created humans to worship Him. Humans have a natural thirst. The problem is that many people will fill their well with material because they are thirsty and they are not satisfied with what they have at the moment.

What are you thirsty for?
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What are you filling your well with?
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Are you willing to let go of those things that may stop you from getting close to God?
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As soon as you let God take over and let Him be your source of water......... your source of energy, He will do great things in you. He will heal and wipe away every wound that lies within in you. Wounds that are so deep that no man can heal them but only God.

~I'm done with you Maccabees~

2006-03-05T16:31:00.000-05:00

WOW! Finally finished Maccabees! Erin and I spent 8 hours in the computer lab together yesterday working on a tough assignment for one of our teachers. We also spent most of today in the lab as well. Boy am I glad it's all over with. Even better we got it done a week early! Booya! George Eves your assignments are too hard!! No one understands your questions. Oh well I am just sitting dancing in my seat because I am so done baby. Yesterday was amazing how God just helped me in everyway. I was so movitatived and ready to get this baby done and I did! Thank you God for helping me every step of the way! You are such an faithful and loving God. You are good God! Thank you. All glory goes to You. Well just wanted to share with you my weekened haha spent in the lab with Erin. I hope you had fun in the beautiful sunshine!

~The Diary of a Mad Black Women~

2006-03-04T23:16:00.000-05:00

Hey look at this everyone! This is my first my blog with PICTURES!!Ha This would be Erin and I having our crazy movie and pj night at her house. We watch "The Dairy of a Mad Black Women" I brought it over from my place. My mom gave it to me for Christmas. It has to be the best movie ever. I say everyone should go and buy it and watch it! It's a Christian moive. It has the whole deal man...people being saved, healed and dealing with forgiveness. It's awesome. Oh yes and there Gospel music baby! It really speaks about godly relationships and intimacy! This movie has NO SEX! It's great! Go watch it. It also has scripture quote all the way through it. It's about a women and her husban who leaves her for another women and through this whole movie the women is healed from the hurt of her husband leaving her. She is able to forgive him from all that he has done to her in the past. Best movie ever! I love it! Every time I watch it is like watching it for the first time all over again! haha It's great! Go get it!

Not Having fun with my Digi Cam!

2006-02-24T19:51:00.000-05:00

Oh my goodness I am not very pleased right now. haa I came home this after noon and I have spent from about 6:00 to 9:00 trying to upload my pictures from my camera to my computer. It really disapoints me because today is the only day I can do it. I have the program already and it;s already installed and everything but the thing is , is don't remember HOW I uploaded my pictures from last time I did it. hahah yes you can laugh, because I know later I will laugh at myself for this.

I think I need to take a break from the computer though and find peace. Before I say anyting more. I love you all very much. You'll hear more about my heart and what God has been saying to me later. I need to go talk to Him right now. :)

For God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything. 1John4:20

~Pray for the elders, the speakers and the leaders over us!~

2006-02-21T13:18:00.000-05:00

Friday after school I hopped in the car with Skky, Katie, Courtney and Chad. We all went St. Stephen. The drive there and back was a lot of fun. I guess your asking why did we go to St. Stephen out of all places? hah There happened to be a worship service at The Christian community center so we went. It wasn't exactly what has expected but we still ended up having a good time.

I do believe that God put something on my heart that night. It was to begin praying for our leaders. No not... the leaders of Canada. Yes we do need to pray for them. When I say "leader" I mean go pray for those people that are speaking to the church. God called me to pray for the guy who was speaking Friday night. I said to God " God I am so young and he is a leader." God said " go and pray for him" Think about it... how often does the speakeer in the church get prayer from the young people? Probably not often. I really think it's time for the young people to be praying for the elders of the church and for our speakers. We are to encourage them through prayer and the love of God. God really spoke to me that night as I was praying over this man. To be honest I never knew his name and I wasn't very impressed with this talk but God still told me pray for him. We need to begin to pray for them today!

~ God's Song~

2006-02-17T11:14:00.000-05:00

I was at my apartment just reading and soaking with God. Lately I have been feeling like God has been trying to give something to me I just haven't been able to fully see it yet. So I praying and I said alright God I know you are trying give something to me. I want whatever you are giving me.

Then I had a vision of myself in a white dress on the top a very high mountain. I could see nothing but sky and clouds. The grass was so green. (ha It kind of reminded me of Julie Andrews in the Sound of music.) I began dancing in the very center of the mountain. I was like GOD I WANT MORE!!! Then the heavens opened up and Jesus came down. We began to dance together for a while. Then we stopped and I began to talk to Him. I just simply said I want sing. I want to your voice to lead me in song and worship. Take me higher God. Then all of a sudden I looked up and there was this HUGE beam of light coming down and went right into my mouth and into my throat and my then belly. Right there I knew He was putting new songs, and new music into me. Then Jesus came over to me and prayed over me. He put His on my head and then brushed his hands from my shoulders down to my feet. Then beams of lights just began to come out of me every direction. I looked at Him and I ask him what is this? He said Take hold leader of worship and worship leader. I had no words in me I was speechless.

Then I got the sense He was telling to turn off my music and to now sing. So I did. I sang. I couldn't even believe the things I was singing. I never sang like that before it was all God. Before something even came to my mind it would come out of my lips first and I would be like where did that come from thank you Jesus.

Just to let those of who you don't know, know that before this I use to sing every now and then just around my apartment but not so much in front of people. I have always loved singing. I have never been bold enough to sing in front of people though. So that will be my next step with God. ha.

Anyways if you have any interpretations about this more than me please share them with me. Thanks.

Be Blessed

P.s This actualy dated from February 8, 2006 I took it from my my space and pasted it into here. I'll be doing that with a few of my other blogs as well.

Oh Thursdays....I love you.

2006-02-16T10:32:00.000-05:00

I know that sounds a little off but if you were in my spot I guess you would know how I feel about them. From 8:30- 3:30 I have a regular day. Then at 4:00 there is a chapel service with communion that runs till 5:00. After chapel I leave right away to get in the car for my placement. I am placed at Church of the Good Shepherd. I lead youth group there. I get to the church probably around 5:30 and wait around for the kids to arrive at 6:00. Most nights Youth groups ends at 7:30 but tonight it's going to 8:00 because we are having a belated valentines party! haha. I'm really looking forward to it. I made chocolate chip cookies and valentines for all the kids.

There is a girl and her brother in the youth group who are moving away so it's going to be a good bye party as well. Boy I am REALLY going miss them a lot. In case you were wondering the kids in my youth are ages 8- 12 most of them are 10 and 11. I am really going to miss the youth group when I head home in May.

So back to my day... normally when it goes to 7:30 I don't get home till 8:00 but tonight I probably won't get home till 8:30. Oh boy it's going to be a loooong day. Tonight I am really looking forward to chapel because Dan Trecartin is coming in to talk and to do communion. When I go home in next weekend I hope to get some pictures up here and running and I will try to get a picture of my youth group to show everyone. They are amazing!! Anyways that's all for now folks.

I love you. Be Blessed

Prayer Request

2006-02-15T10:24:00.000-05:00

Hello There,

I don't know who you are or if someone is reading this blog or not, but if you are reading this I only have one request for you. Right now I am sitting in the computer lab at my school and trying to work on this paper I have due next week. All I ask is that you pray for me as I write my paper today. Pray that there will be a God given download of information into me and He will give me revelation on what I should be writing. Well thank you so much. Your prayers mean so much to me.

Be Blessed

~Love them...unconditionally~

2006-02-14T14:43:00.000-05:00

Something that has been on my heart lately is that I am tired of how the church reacts to those who fall away from the Lord. The church turns there back towards them and act like they never even knew them. I find that to be immature and wrong at the same time. God has been teaching me a lot on unconditional love. I have had a couple of friends who have been dealing with a lot of stuff and people have turned their backs on them even the church has kicked them out, because of what they are doing. I do not understand why people do this. Do they no see that they are doing is exactly opposite of what Jesus did during His ministry days. Jesus went around and hung around with the "sinners" people like the prostitutes, the lepers, the tax collectors etc. We are to love these people not turn our backs to them. I know I have used this verse in my other blogs but it's so important....

Ephesians 5: 1-2. Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

We are to be true IMITATORS of CHRIST!!! We are to love those who are unloved. Love them just the way they are! You have no idea these people that God has placed in my life I have such a huge love for them. They know I love them and that I am here for them and that God is with them. There are very few people who care about them right now. This is one thing that bothers me because people are too focused on themselves and don't bother in helping out those who are lost and hated. The story of the lost son is a great example Luke 15: 11-32 just only past verses 20-32

"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.'

"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.'

Jesus waits for our return to Him He wants that intimate relationship with us. For us we just wait patiently till our friend is ready to come back to Christ. All you can do is pray and encourage and most importantly love them unconditionally. God also commands us to love our neighbor as ourselves.
Matthew 22: 37-40 Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

He's not just saying that He's meaning it. Meaning we need to love everyone. This was God first command. When we don't love each we don't love God fully...... wow. Think about that. Do you want an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ? You first need to love everyone unconditionally. Now I challenge you all to make a change in this and reach out to those in the church who are hated and lost make a change and love them.

Be Blessed my friends

I love you

~Like a little girl~

2006-02-14T14:18:00.000-05:00

Like a little girl
I scribble the letters
of Your name on the notes
in my school book.
I write how much
I love you.
I can never
express the love
I have
for you.
Your love
for me
is pure
and
unfailing.

I want to give you
more than
what I can
write on paper.
I give you
my all,
my everything.
I am yours and
you
you are mine.

I love you more
than anything else
in the world.
You are my first
and my
foremost.

Like a little girl
I go to sleep
and dream
about you
and your love
for me.

In my dreams
I see you dancing
with me.
It's not just
any dance
it's a
romantic dance

When I wake up
I put music on
that reminds
me of you
Your name
will never
leave my lips.
I will scream
Your name
from the top
of every
mountain.

When you
look at me
you see a child,
you see a daughter,
you see a princess,
you see beauty,

Each day
I wait for
your coming.
I am patient
I am full
of peace.
I know
what you
have for me is
much better
than what
anyone else
can give me.

Like a little girl
who pictures
her wedding day
from the time she was 5
I wait for
and imagine
my bride groom,
but you
are much
better than
anyone.
You are
amazing.
I want
to be
romanced
by you.

You are
my night in shinning armor,
my shield,
my gentleman,
my lover,
my first love,
my King,

You are
my God.
I love you
with all
my heart.

~ Jessica Joyce

God's Heart and Cry

2006-02-07T09:03:00.001-05:00

Alright this is just something I felt like sharing with everyone. This happened sometime late last week. I went to bed and then woke up around 10:30pm ( I went to bed really early that night) with the urge to talk to my mom. So I called and my brother answered the phone. He said she was already in bed. So I laid there in bed for a while just thinking. I began to think about my parents and how much I don't know them. I was thinking about how I wanted to know them. I wanted them to know me as my friends know me. I want to be real with them and feel open to say what I want with them. I want to know where they are with God and He is saying to them. Mostly I just want to know them, and I want them to know me. Then I began to cry because I was sad and upset that I didn't know my own parents and they didn't know me. I just laid there and cried.

Then God spoke to me through all this... He said now you know how I feel when I cry over my people, because I want to know them. They just don't have the desire to know me as I have to know them. God was showing me and giving me a piece of His heart. I was amazing. I just laid there and cried. I felt so good because I felt God's love surround me yet I felt pain because God was really showing how he was feeling and how His people. It was amazing. I can't put actual words to it. I can say God taught me a lot and showed me a lot though just that one night......... I want more...... of God..... more of His love.... more of His Heart..... more of His everything. I want all of Him.

Just my first one give me a break

2006-02-07T08:51:00.000-05:00

So this is my very first blog in the blog spot place. I thought I should start it up so people can see and hear what I am doing these days. I can tell you now it's not going to be easy for me to blog here because I have another blog spot that I use much more but I'll do my best. I hope you are all doing well. I look forward to sharing with you what God has been laying on my heart and teaching me. May God be with you today and evermore. I pray that you will be blasted by the Holy Spirit.

Be Blessed